NUKUEA'S TRAUMA {zeenunew/znn}

reason of living

kuea 🎤🎤

i rushed to hospital and asked for kian .

"excuse me .my son doji was brought here where is he "

i told them doji because i have told kian to tell his name as Doji to strangers.that is the name that nuchy gave him. she thinks it is cute but i use it as his safety .i am afraid those people will find us if someone knows his real name .

we rushed in where she told us and there he was swinging his legs on a bed while looking at his cast .

"kian"i called him softly with a sigh of relief

as soon as he turned and i ran to him and hugged him gently careful to his cast .I silently started crying and tears started to flow from my eyes continuously .all of my insecurities and negative thoughts came to me .

what if they founds us ?

he will kill me and take kian away .

what if something would have happened?

what if .what if -

soon my hands started trembling badly and i was having very difficulties and with the thought of what ifs- my head started hurting followed by that sarcasting and cold laughter that was ringing in my ears now and the way everyone showed me their back when i needed them .those screams for help.all those bloody images came to my mind like a flood and soon everything blacked out .

kian 🐱‍🚀

i could feel that daddy was crying but i let him because i know that all his insecurities he need this most i will comfort him in every single way i can .i gently patted his back and head .i could feel his irregular breathing but i was calm enough with him .

i know daddy .when ever he is worried or scared he starts trembling and crying .i listened to doctors and know how to calm him down .Daddy always gives his best for me and give me proper time even though he is busy . daddy id scared of rain ,thunders and most especially darkness.its very hard for him to spent monsoon especially in nights .soon i felt that daddy wait is increasing on me so i looked at him and saw that he fell asleep or maybe fainted .

'oh~ daddy you you are heavy ,p'nuchy help me "i said with difficulty as soon she helped me with daddy and laid him down on the extra sofa in room

"p'nuchy ,can i ask you something"i asked her .she then sat beside me and nodded her head

"who is hia in daddy's life ?"i asked her

"it's its no-one important doji .why don't you sleep with him you are also tired right? "she said to me but i know she is lying .i have heard daddy one night holding a picture

flashback~

i woke up because i heard some voice from outside .although i am young i am light sleeper because sometimes daddy starts crying in nights and i need to comfort him so i got off the bed and went toward the voice and stopped on the stairs.

daddy was sitting on the couch holding a photo of a man .i can't look at that properly but "hia why why is everything like this?why do you need to hurt me ?i could have accepted everyone's but you and diao why?i believed him most while i loved you most then why you could not believe me and believed him that bastard."'while crying soon he wiped his tears stand up so i also went back to room

flashback end

third person pov

nuchy and doji went outside to eat something and when they returned they heard some screaming from the room where kuea was so they ran there and saw that he was curled into a ball covering his head and body with is hands and legs folded near chest , crying loudly & screaming not to come near him