After the days you are mocking, no they finished, during breaks I spent my
time alone in a corner of the school, my
face had already lost all that shine, my
mind began to overthink, anxiety and
depression began to take over me
without leaving me alone.Months later, these thoughts grew more and more, at night those nightmares that did not let me sleep with thoughts of all the horrible things that those who called themselves my friends did to me, wanting to reach the point of wanting to attack my own life to thus ending that nightmare completely.My life began to lose its meaning, its shine began to fade, the mentalities of not wanting to live anymore had begun to creep into my mind, no one cared about me, not even my mother knew what I was feeling.
Months later, these thoughts grew more and more, at night those nightmares that
did not let me sleep with thoughts of all the horrible things that those who called
themselves my friends did to me, wanting to reach the point of wanting to attack my
own life to thus ending that nightmare completely.
One night I tried to take some pills, my mother was not at home so I had no problem
doing it, but I couldn't do it at that moment, she arrived so I had to pretend she was
asleep even though she wasn't because I ran the risk. to come see me in the room.
The next day I got up, got ready and went to school but in my suitcase I had pills
with which I was going to end my life once and for all. I arrived at school and went
into the bathroom first, I took ten pills, at that moment a classmate came in and I instantly
fell to the floor without giving any sign of life.
Hours later...
I woke up in a hospital, my mother is next
to me, I thought I had already ended my life but it wasn't like that.The same day I returned home.I recovered for five days but again my
mother didn't pay attention to me, so I
decided to have the same routine in the
mornings as when I left for school so that
mom wouldn't suspect anything.
I said goodbye to my mother with a kiss on the cheek and waited for her to
leave work to return home. In between I went up to the terrace I hung a rope and
held on to it, with my feet dangling, my neck red and my body hanging. about
to say goodbye to all that pain, in the distance I saw with my eyes half closed and
soaked in tears a woman who was screaming and crying begging me not to do
it, but my body had already fallen and I no longer had any vital signs. nothing.
