glassheart(book 1)

all because i liked a girl

tw: self harm

chloes pov

todays the day. we are finally going to tell my mom, and now that I'm engaged too... god. "hey baby are you ready?" red asks me as she finishes her hair in the bathroom. "yeah." "you okay love?" red asks. i wasn't, but i couldn't let her know i was nervous. i knew red would've started to panic. "cut the shit, i know your not okay." red says grabbing my hand. my sleeve goes up revealing my cuts. "chloe what the fuck."  red says in fear. "red-" she cuts me off "why chloe, please this isn't right." she starts to tear up.

flashback to this morning
"your a disgrace. how dare you betray me and this family. chloe charming you're done. don't consider yourself apart of this family anymore-." my mother says as i snap out of my nightmare. i was breathing heavily, sweating. the day has finally come. i go to check the time.
4:56 am
shit. i try to go back to sleep but i just couldn't.
your a disgrace
your a disgrace
your a disgrace
i couldn't take it anymore. i got up quietly trying to not wake red up. i tiptoe to the bathroom and slowly close the door. i go into the bottom drawer and took the blade. i look at the blade and then look at myself in the mirror. just one more time, then i'll stop. i stare at the blade. rethinking what my mother has said to me in the past.
"oh chloe if you come home with a girl you can say goodbye to your future."
i start to cut
"remember your going to find a PRINCE charming chloe, not a princess."
i cut again
"how dare you bring a gay girl into my house."
another slice into my wrist
blood dripping on the floor
you're a disgrace
i cut and cut and cut till i cant feel anything anymore.
i look back up at the mirror
what did i do.
i start to bawl. i couldn't take it anymore. i love my mom, but why, why does she out of all people, cinderella, have to be homophobic. i sit in silence trying to calm myself down. i eventually clean the blood off the floor, and wash my cuts. the part that hurt me more is that i had to keep it from red. i didn't want to make her nervous about telling my mom, but what was i supposed to do.

reds pov (present)
"please understand red." chloe says after she tells me what happened this morning. "baby please, promise me next time you think of doing this just wake me up okay?" i say as i embrace her. "i promise." chloe says her voice muffled from my hair. we stay hugging each other for a moment, enjoying each others presence. chloe's warm touch always comforting. i didn't want to tell chloe i was nervous. i mean cinderella just knows me as chloe's friend. i don't have a good feeling about this.
"hey no matter what happens we have each other okay? and if anything we can run away together." i say giggling as chloe rolls her eyes at me. "ready?" "always."

chloe and red make their way to reds car. both scared as shit, but didn't want to say that to each other. they both get into reds car and chloe starts to play music as always. sailor song by gigi perez starts playing. red starts to drive as she locks hands with chloe.
"i love you no matter what."
"i love you no matter what."

they arrive to cinderellasburg

reds pov
i park my car into the charming drive way. i notice chloe starting to breathe heavily and fast. i grab her hand. "hey hey, it's gonna be okay baby." i say squeezing her hand. she doesn't respond her breathing gets faster. i move her hand to my heart "just match my breathing baby, in and out." she looks me in the eyes trying to copy me. "i-i-" she tries to speak but couldn't. "just breathe baby, please." i say as she takes my other hand and squeezes it. her breathing eventually goes back to normal and she starts to calm down. "im sorry red im just, really scared. i really do love my mom but this is just gonna.." she pauses "its gonna ruin my relationship with her." her voice starts to break. "i know baby." we sit in silence for a minute. "maybe we should just tell her we're dating, i mean i think the engagement might be a big bomb drop on her." i say trying to comfort chloe. "no, no, i want her to know, i want the whole world to know. i don't want us to have to hide things red." "so then we will tell her love."
*chloe gets a text*
"it's my mom." chloe says as she opens her texts