~Yes, I do, I believe
that one day I will be
where i was right there
Right next to you~
January 7, 2014
This is exactly the day when the most amazing woman was born but it wasn't just that. You being born to this world was more than enough but I guess I got lucky because years later -still the same day- you became my wife.
~Your touch, your skin
Where do I begin?
No words can explain
The way I'm missing you~
Happy Birthday and Happy 8th Anniversary, my love. I miss you like hell. Im so sorry but I just can't celebrate this day like we used to. Not when you are not with me anymore.
For the first time after you were gone I did drink. A lot. Tried to relive what January 7 felt like. Unfortunately, I can't. Who am I kidding? Baby, it hurts like hell so I started to cry. Forgive me. I know you said I shouldn't but it's your day, OUR day. The pain just won't stop.
~Deny this emptiness
This hole that I'm inside
These tears
They tell their own story
Told me not to cry when you were gone
But the feeling's overwhelming, it's much too strong~
Yes, i tried not to cry because I promised you I won't. You said you'll see me and it would upset you, i don't want that so i tried. I love you so much. So I worked hard, dedicated all my time for work. But I can't be strong today. Not today. Im so sorry. Please forgive me I broke my promise. Please don't be upset. I love you.
It would only be for today and I'll be strong for you again. Actually I am doing quite well. An album will be released soon. You are my inspiration. I want to be with you. Someday we will be together again.
Forever be loving you:
Samuel
I closed the notebook. It is the third notebook I have consisting all my letters for her. It is all I can do. Left to do. I write everything, everyday just like when she was still around. We talk about everything. She was my best friend, my wife, my everything.
