- 10 years ago
- omniscient
There sat ten year old Xayzir in his bathroom with a razor in his hand.
He knew it was wrong, but it was the only thing that got rid of the feelings of his own father's hands on his body.
It was the unfair advantage his father had over his little body and his mother he knew he couldn't escape. So he found a new way to cope with the pain cutting himself made him feel better.
He knew no one would notice because no one paid attention to him not even at school, like the time the teacher clearly saw he had a black eye but chose to look past it and not even ask if he was okay.
He was only ten and starting to develop things no ten-year-old should. He started taking pain medication for a numbness he loved the feeling it gave him but he was only ten.
When he turned fifteen he started smoking weed it wasn't as good as Percs but it did the job. His father had left his mother and she became abusive but Xayzir loved his mother so he stayed and dealt with her.
One day on his seventeenth birthday she told him she had a gift for him. She had made him do something to her that no mother should do, after that day Xayzir had fell and to a dark place and even stopped speaking he was unable to be happy even when things seemed better.
He became more hooked to drugs and cutting himself those things helped him cope.
Until one day nineteen year old Xayzir couldn't take it anymore and calls his brother and tells him what's been happening.
He immediately moves out and into his brother's house, but the memories and coping mechanisms never fade. They're still stuck with him no matter how many drugs no matter how deep he cuts himself there still memories of that family he can't seem to forget.
*unfair affection
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