Note:
I've spent a long time trying to analyze this Creepypasta and study his disorders. I know what's canon so I made sure the headcanons are all realistic. I'm using the canon Ticci-Toby version, not the one David Near's has made. This is based off of my AU as well, so if you get upset over headcanons, don't read this.
Credit:
The character including the book cover were both made by Kastoway.
Why a whole ass book for headcanons?:
One of my friends and a few others joked about me writing a book, so I just agreed to it since I love coming up with headcanons and analyzing this man so much
- When Toby is going through depressive episodes, he will be extremely insecure, unlike when he's going through manic episodes, which is when he'll be overly confident.
- He won't really listen in conversations unless the topic is something he genuinely cares about, because otherwise, he's bored and won't show any interest. He's a very uncaring person unless fond of someone or something.
- Talking to him can be a huge struggle. His schizophrenia makes it difficult, then the fact that he heavily zooms out at times, his ADHD which means he struggles with focusing a lot and more. During conversations, he might change the topic over and over again in the most random moments. He gets distracted within seconds and talks about something completely off the point.
- Painting his nails doesn't help with his self harm, at all. Why would it when he's chewing the flesh off of his hands, fingers and even wrists at times. A thing he likes to do is just tightly wrap a bandage around his hands and let people he's fond of draw silly things on the bandages so the chance that he takes them off is lower. He also wears his gloves a lot, covering up most parts of his body to stop himself from literally eating his own flesh.
- Toby never really learned how to introduce himself. Instead of properly explaining who he is, he will directly jump into a conversation and ramble about the most unnecessary things.
- Being temperamental and unpredictable is something that he "struggles" with the most. His emotions could shift any minute, like the bipolar raccoon he is. Loudmouthed people trigger him a lot. He himself is sassy, so if someone's loudmouthed and acts rude towards him (even though he was rude first), he will be pissed and will to argue. Speaking of arguing, in arguments, he'd always try to have the last word and would also try to manipulate the person he's talking to into thinking they're wrong and he's right(Something people with ASPD tend to do)
- He doesn't fear death, but he fears the place where he will die. Toby wants to lay down on grass, breathe in the fresh breeze and enjoy the scent of the forest while watching the clouds pass high above him, then slowly pass away. It would sooth him and offer some sorce of comfort.
- When it comes to dissociations, Toby realized the nature helps him the most. Whenever he dissociates, he will take his shoes and socks off and just run through a random willow, afterwards taking care of his feet to make sure he doesn't have any wounds. The more he's disconnected from nature, the worse his depressive episodes will be. He has to spend a lot of time in the forest, around wild animals and just nature in general. It's what helps him the most. All of that kind of started to make him think that humans are connected with the nature, both physically and mentally. Tobias feels like nature gives off a certain energy that keeps animals & humans mentally "stable".
- Because of his schizophrenia, he's super touchy. He will dissociate a lot and feel unreal, so he starts touching everything around him to feel connected to reality.
- Toby doesn't question his past at all. To him, it happened and that's it. He isn't interested in knowing about it. Toby literally remembers nothing at all. He will only have flashbacks when triggered through random things, which then causes his PTSD to fuck with him. Later though, he will forget again. It's a bit frustrating to not know why he just had half a mental breakdown, but on the other hand he's too uncaring and knows it's for the best if he won't question it.
- His hallucinations of Lyra confuse him the most. Sometimes he recognizes her, sometimes he doesn't. He will also have hallucinations of his father storming up the stairs and aggressively calling out his name, which to the day sends Toby a shiver down his spine.
- Tobias' kills are very messy. He will fuck his victims up until they are unrecognizable, their skulls completely bashed after all the rage and pent up anger he let out on them.
- Since he's more or less of an cannibal, Toby will sometimes chew on the wrists of his victims. He will simply cut them off and straight up eat the flesh off.
- As a teen, he was close to getting diagnosed with the paranoid personality disorder due to the extreme paranoia his schizophrenia causes. That's also why Toby doesn't get along with overly nice people. He thinks they have bad intentions and want to harm/use him
- Tobias is rather asexual during depressive episode, though will be hypersexual when going through manic episodes. Mania does often cause hypersexuality.
- Toby is the type of person to send the most cursed meme's into groupchats when someone is venting.
- I think people give Toby too much credit for his strength. People with CIPA have weaker bones, so Toby would most likely not be able to fight THAT much or take many hits
- When he sees a lightning, he will count the seconds until hearing the thunder to know how many kilometers it's away.
- Hates Smile dog because Smiley blames Toby for Lyra's accident and forces hallucinations as well as memories into Toby's head.
- When he's going through hypomania, he will sleep for around 9-11 hours every day, but when going through manic episodes, he will go without sleep for 3 days straight at times.
- He fears that everyone he gets close to will share the same fate: Death. So usually, he doesn't let people come too close. Not to mention the fact that he despises the feeling of vulnerability.
- His schizophrenia causes him to randomly sees corpses laying around or dead bodies hanging from trees.
- Toby can be really arrogant as he knows what his strengths are.
- Toby blames himself when fond ones get hurt
- Toby likes it when people depend on him or are attached to him, because it offers reassurance that they won't leave him. However, that only counts if he likes that person. Otherwise he will think it's annoying.
- He likes collecting stones and other silly things he finds in the forest.
- He sometimes kills animals to keep them as pets, since real pets aren't allowed in the Slender-mansion. Once they start to smell, he replaces them tho.
- Because of Toby's CIPA he wouldn't feel the need to pee, so I only imagine him hanging out with the other killers and suddenly the following conversation happens:
"Toby you peed yourself again", "Shit mb bro 🏃♂️" ( credit to @argie003 ...)
- Toby has a lot of damage in his room, because he throws hatchets at the figures he sees.
- Tobias tilts his head a lot, like an owl or a cat!!
Haven't decided whether I will write a chapter 2 with angst-headcanons or any other sort of headcanon yet, but we'll see. Also kinda depends on how many people even read this. Let me know if you have any requests, though!
