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seungmin's had it hard his whole life.
when growing up, his parents had a lot of issues..they split up, his mother left. due to reasons he'd find out later in life. (cheating) he was around 5-6 when his mother left.
it tore him, he loved her with everything he had, at that point could've been where his issues started..but really he couldn't even tell you.
his mother was the one thing he could count on, and when she left. his father wouldn't allow him to see her for some time. she was in a hospital..but not a regular hospital if you understand.
this caused him to become angry at his father..but looking back he couldn't remember many times where his father was even around after his mother left..in his head after his mum left his grammy looked after him, and cared for him.
the moment he found out he was allowed to go see his mother..he was so excited..he didn't cry tho. he never really cried when he probably should be.
like when his family home went up in flames when he was in 5th grade..not a single tear left his eyes until he was offered to go back to bury his now dead family dog. that triggered his tears.
from that day on something inside him changed..he couldn't have deep talks, he avoided any sort of emotion from his family's or friends. he rarely cried, he had an extremely hard time talking about his sexuality, what he liked and didnt like. he wasn't a fan of physical affection either..but started craving it all the time when he was around 16..but was always known was 'the guy who hated hugs' so he never asked for any, he was..different.
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waking up with a beam of light in his face always annoyed him..it always woke him up so early, 6am.
his head shifted slightly as he groaned softly..feeling the usual arm draped over his waist and the feeling of a nose pressed into the back of his neck..was a feeling he was still getting used to.
he sighed softly sitting up, his legs now swinging over the edge of the bed..the arm around his waist had fallen to his side. he turned slightly to look behind him at the man still asleep.
lee know was such a peaceful sleeper.
he turned back looking out the window of the dorm..him and lee know didn't live together per-say, seungmin just stayed the night there most of the time..he didn't really like sleeping alone.
thankfully, han didn't care much.
a soft groan came from behind him, and the feeling of fingertips traced his bare thigh.
"why are you up so early, pup?"
a scratchy, low morning voice called to him.
"you forgot to close the blinds." he said back, slightly grumpy
he took the sheet covering his legs..kind of tucking it around him.
"mmgh, pup." lee know groaned sitting up
"m sorry, i forgot."
he could feel the bed shifting from underneath him, lee know moved closer sitting with his knees on either side on seungmin from behind, he leaned forward onto seungmin's back.
placing soft kisses to the nape of the younger's neck, causing seungmin to pull forward slightly.
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Fanfictionseungmin is emotionally unavailable, but has no issue with commitment or anything like that, his bf lee minho | lee know understands his troubles with him not being able to talk about his emotions or him feeling uncomfortable around others emotions...
