Double layer (COTE x OC)

Volume 1. Artur Smirnov's monologue.

There are so many thoughts in my head, who should I tell them to?
And I'm the only one here - it's better to write them down
You need to keep moving, not running
You can't run away from yourself, you need to know this at 30
You can change the country and the continent
You can hit the jackpot and miss the moment to live
As if there are no boundaries
Leaving, leaving a trace behind
The wind of change is blowing me away
Past the roofs of houses, past the Kremlin walls
And I'm hovering over the city like Superman
Leaving his stuffy captivity
One more time, it's just me and you here
The last call and the bridges are burning
The ground was gone from under my feet
I let go a long time ago, but I still love you.
The moment has come to change everything in life
And conquer new peaks
Believe me, it's so hard for me to say goodbye

Since I left Russia, I have been hearing this music in my head all the time. I am not sure why, as I had never listened to this song before. But for some reason, it seems like the voice of my soul, and it does not want to let me go.

Tell me, what is homeland? It is the place where we were born and raised, where we feel comfortable and safe. Is it true that when we leave this place, we become empty shells, as if we are doing something wrong? Many people leave their homeland and never return, and they are tormented by a sense of loss that does not allow them to fully integrate into a new society.

But shouldn't homeland be a place where we feel at home? Isn't it just a metaphor imposed on us from childhood, a way to deny change and new experiences? I don't know the answer, but...

I don't regret leaving.

Yes, for me, it's just a fresh start. A life without fear or loss. An opportunity to do something new and, finally, to enjoy school life.

I need to adjust to a new society and build a solid foundation for my future in Japan. 

After all, I will never go back.