Helping 13- rewriting it

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AURORA

It had been a month since i started at Tommen, and if i must say, it has been going great. My friendship with my three favorite girls had been stronger than ever. I was falling into a routine with them. They were my girls, my place. Although it was the four of us it was clear how close each one of us were. I loved all of them equally, but if i had to pick, i'd say Lizzie was my best friend, and i think it was like that with Claire and Shannon.. Them two together, and me and Lizzie.

My relationship with my father has started getting better. He was at home more and would occasionally find time to spend with me, like real quality time, which made me more happier than ever. On the other hand Demon spawn was still a bit tough, but i could see she was cracking..

Daniel.. Daniel was a different story. He was hanging with the guys at school, he started playing rugby with them, it was okay. But i also found out that he was hanging with Joey Lynch, Shannon's older brother. I had nothing against Shannon's brother, the lad seemed great. It was just that i heard, no knew that Joey himself was battling with addiction and i just didn't want my brother around someone like that. I know it sounded bad, but i couldn't even fathom the thought of him getting caught up in drugs again. And i was just afraid that if he kept hanging with Joey Lynch that just that would happen. I didn't think Joey would give him drugs or something like that, no, it's just that when you see the people around you doing something, especially your friends, you'd want to start doing it too. That was how most addictions started, that's what i was scared would happen. It's pretty much how i started smoking. The other models, my 'friends', even some of the people i looked up to and have met all smoked, that's how i caught on, that's how i got addicted. It's was never even just the nicotine, it was the feeling of fulness after a cigarette or two, that was what i craved. I was just scared that that was the case for my brother as well..

I have also been reconnecting with Gibs a lot. I know that i haven't seen him in years, but something just feels off with him. Like he's hiding something. I would be lying if i said i wasn't worried about him. I hate it that he can't open up to me, i get it, i do, it just i wish i could know what happened. I can feel that he's not himself...

I had also noticed that Shannon's little 'incident' on the rugby field hadn't been mentioned by anyone. And i had no other to thank than Johnny Kavanagh. Shan felt good and safe now, she didn't have any trouble with bullies or shitheads and i was really happy for her about that.

Johnny Kavanagh

He seemed so good, too good.

I always saw him on my way to class, in the hall, in the cafeteria, and each time i had spotted him, he was already looking at me. And each time i met him with a smile.

In the school toilets i had heard multiple things about him.

He was in fifth year- Something i already knew
He was originally from Dublin- nothing new
He was incredibly popular- Anyone could have guessed that. I mean he was the captain of the rugby team, playing in the Academy. He was always surrounded by students and girls, a lot of girls..

I also heard that he had this fucking only relationship with Bella Wilkinson from sixth year. I met her, she talked to me a little, but if i'm being honest, she seemed like such a bitch. You could see it in the way she talked, walked and just moved. I didn't know how she scored something with Johnny.

Johnny Kavanagh looked so sweet. He didn't seem like your classic popular guy. He seemed like he would always help anyone out. Like if he saw a puppy on the street he'd bring it home, like he'd volunteer to read to children or elderly people.

And that look in his ocean blue eyes. Like there was so much more behind that perfect white smile. He had a story, i knew it. Something was there..But all of that was hidden by his rugby career and that was the thing he cared about the most.