I had nightmares that repeated where I had to shake myself awake
How can I beat all this depression that I'm left to face?
When I wake up I can feel him standing by my side
Whispered in my ear "you know that you're not leaving here alive"
Don't know how much I can take
If I take one more then I gotta go
But my demons keep me awake
No matter how hard I try they won't let me go
Sometimes I put shit in my system that I ain't supposed to have
Ain't take the whole thing but damn sure it was close to half
I tried it once before but that time I ain't close the gap
But I talked to God and thought I was gone so how close was that?
Since I got on I got friends that ain't even hollered since
I laid in bed with a pistol ready to call it quits
I'm locked and loaded, I lock the door and I'm not gon' miss
Being this lonely'll hit you up like a wall of bricks
That shit aside I want these feelings fucking outta me
And all I want was a hug from someone who's proud of me
This the type of shit my friends don't wanna be bothered with
So the next time I have problems who could I call 'em with?
Don't know how much I can take
If I take one more then I gotta go
But my demons keep me awake
No matter how hard I try they won't let me go
I had nightmares that repeated where I had to shake myself awake
How can I beat all this depression that I'm left to face?
When I wake up I can feel him standing by my side
Whispered in my ear "you know that you're not leaving here alive"
The devil tried to keep me close and never let me out his sight
I tried escaping that motherfucker my entire life
I tried to shake him off but he's always a step ahead
He's the shadow in my dream, the voice inside my head
I feel him right over my shoulder while I write this out
If he gon' try me he best pray to God he wipe me out
And no one's home so I'm the one who's gotta fight this out
And we all know who's gonna win so what you crying 'bout?
Don't know how much I can take
If I take one more then I gotta go
But my demons keep me awake
No matter how hard I try they won't let me go
But my demons keep me awake
No matter how hard I try they won't let me go
