DEAREST (lingorm, omega verse,GP)

CHAPTER 1( the secret )

I'm Orm. 20 years old. When I was a child, I knew the feeling of being a slave. 5 years ago!  when our mother and father left us. because of the accident! me and my brother were left alone! because I'm the eldest, I persevered to support our life. difficult but doable. where we were thrown away .where where we entered ! Our life was not good. the dream I want for my brother. and the life we dreamed of will never be built. I only want one thing in life. that is to live with my Brother. and I'm also only afraid of one thing! being an OMEGA. I will do everything for my brother! I will keep everything for the life I dream of

I'm an omega! disgusting, shameful, like an animal. why? why is the question I often ask myself. why was i born an omega something that can never be hidden. something that makes me weak. and something that will never change. but even so I have to accept it! for myself! medicine is what I need for being an omega! (suppressant) is the medicine I take just to hide being an omega. I'm not even (BETA) like my brother. I accept everything even if my life is difficult

4:00 o clock in the afternoon while my brother and I were walking on the road

"sister! what are we going to do now? if we don't pay this next month we will be able to leave the place we are renting"my brother asked worriedly.

"don't worry. I'll take care of everything. Just don't think that we're having a hard time! Sis will take care of everything as long as you always remember. Sis is the strongest sister in the whole world."

that's my answer to my brother. answer that should make him stronger. Prem is only 17 years old! my brother that I have to protect. and the only important thing in my life!

"heyy orm! Where are you going with your brother? I was waiting for you yesterday. You didn't even come by the house! I wanted to tell you something!"

approaching conversation with anty.
Anty often talks to me when it comes to problems! Anty is also kind and often helps us.

"Ahh, I'm sorry, Anty. I helped Prem yesterday! That's why I didn't pass by your house yesterday. Ahh, anty ! how is your work? "

"oh! My work ?. it's hard but I can still handle it. ahh yes by the way. aren't you looking for a job right now? why don't you come with me and I can include you in my work!!"

I am interested in any job. just for me and my brother! I'm used to it even though it's very difficult.
since then I'm used to being tired and struggling with different jobs.
I can handle everything for my brother and I to live

"I'll think about it first anty"
that's my answer to anty

"after our conversation! It's been a few days since I talked to Anty.
I didn't even talk to him about the job she offered me."

after a few days. just one week. and we have to pay rent.I'm afraid! scared because of what could happen to my brother and me! I can't help but worry. i think about me and my brother? we have to pay a lot. debt left by our parents. debt that we should not pay

9: pm in the evening

while staring at the stars
! I couldn't sleep at all
( can I still do it ? ) I asked myself. I was struggling. I feel like we are being punished. I'm secretly crying because I'm tired and I feel my brother and I's suffering again .

"ahhhhhh.. I'm so tired"

but this is not the thing that can give up on me! because I know that I am strong. I can do everything.

I wiped the tears from my eyes. I prayed and slept well

I can't give up on what I promised my parents. I have to be strong in front of my Brother. I know myself that I can do it! I can do it for our dream

6: o clock in the morning . I immediately went to Anty's house. to talk to him about the job she offered me.

"Good morning Anty!" I immediately greeted Anty.

"orm! good morning. you too" Anty also greeted me

I immediately talked to Anty about the job she offered me! I told my aunt. why do I need that job?

"aunty, I would like the job but I'm having second thoughts. Can someone like me be accepted."

"Yes, of course! You can do any job.any job orm suits you. as long as you're a beta."
that's what Anty told me, which surprised me a lot

"ahhh? beta!"
I was surprised by what Anty told me. I was worried too. how do i tell anty i'm an omega and not a beta

"anty! ahmm! I'm not a beta."

Anty was immediately surprised.

"what? what do you mean?" that was Anty's answer to me!

I immediately explained to Anty. that I am an omega and not a beta. it's hard to imagine that. maybe being an omega won't get me the job I need.

"orm. I'm sorry but an omega is not accepted at my workplace"

I was immediately nervous about what Anty was saying to me. I immediately begged Anty to help me. to be able to work at his workplace

"anty please I'm begging you. help me get a job. I need the job! I really need the job. for me and Prem" I begged  Anty

"but orm"

I know my request is difficult for Anty. but I'm really desperate.

"please anty I m begging you ! I will do all the work. everything will be fine. please anty. I really need the work!"

because of my begging Anty, she accepted my request. She immediately asked me

"okay orm ! I'll help you ! I'll help you work at my job. but ! there's one thing you have to do. you need medicine (suppressant) you need it while you work ! so they don't know you're an omega and not a beta "I'm sorry. It's difficult, but that's the way it should be."

after our conversation. I immediately talked to my brother about moving to our workplace

My brother and I had a good conversation.

a few days passed.

6 : 00 am in the morning . day of the week ! This is the day I've been waiting for the most! going to the mansion where my brother and I will work....

               

 

to be continued