Interaction with the Lovely Author

It's been too long?

Wow... It's really been a while since I've written about something. I don't know who's out there and who may find this, but hello!

2018 was the last time I've written on this account, which isn't surprisingly as I got distracted and moved on to other projects in my life. However, today I took the time to reread the two things I wrote and I found that the way I wrote back then was very charming. 

I found it wholesome how back then I was practically a teenager who wanted somebody to connect with and share my frustrations and amusement of the world around us. And a secret about me is that I do not have a lot confidence in my writing or in myself. I often find myself wishing I could be more social, pretty, smart, or more than what I am. But oddly enough, reading my two works was healing to me. 

It reminded me that I was/am somebody loveable. 

I find it easy to admire strangers and seeing the beauty of another human being (except when i'm driving. I don't know somehow when people get behind the wheel, there's the selfish greed for speed and space). 

Somebody I recently admire was this girl at a university campus that I was visiting, and I noticed her because she was studying. She had an iPad that was on a live stream or one of those youtube study with me videos, and I couldn't help but admire how studious she was. I wondered what she was studying for and what could she be worried about. She had a calm air about her that made you want to respect her space and not bother her too much. But she wasn't unapproachable, I was just shy and just passing by. 

I wonder, dear reader, have you ever admired someone from a far. Not out of admiration because of attraction, but just the fascination of somebody else because they seem cool and interesting? 

I wonder if people are admiring me in secret. Or if people have admired me in the past but I just never knew. In the past, I would say hello and good morning to the people that I knew a bit in my high school. It was something that I enjoyed doing because I got to make brief conversations with people about how they were doing and if anything was new in their life. And there was this girl who graduated with me that told me at a party that my good mornings was something she appreciated. I don't know how much of that was true, but this was a girl I barely knew about but something that I thought was my everyday meant something to her. 

I guess what I'm trying to get at is that if there's a possibility that if I can find things I can appreciate in strangers, then there's a possibility I can one day appreciate and like my current self. And today I found something to like my younger self and maybe that's a step closer to my goal. 

For you, I hope you know I appreciate you reading my rant. I want to inspire you to do something nice for yourself and for other people. It could be the person you often see in class but never got the chance to know or holding the door for someone. 

Well whatever it is whether big or small I hope you, my dear reader, can find something to appreciate about in yourself or in somebody else. Who knows maybe somebody else is admiring you, too.