Bench

CHAPTER 3

I REALLY DO HOPE SO!!!!!!

SHANIA'S POV

Today is weekend, I standby myself in the bench to get some fresh air. Knowing that  it is holiday and there's no work, I just stroll here despite that Karx will not passed by here since he has no work. 

Why  do I need to explain myself though, it's my nine years going here when something came up to my mind so it's not that I'm going here to meet him. He is also the one who make a bridge for us to know each other by approaching me first. If it's out of pity, I think other people won't do that especially when they are both strangers.

Anyway, let's stop thinking about this nonsense topic. I'm just making myself doubt out of nothing to my delusional fantasy. The purpose of my stroll here is  not to make myself stress from my nonsense love life but to take a breather from nature so I can continue my work. I should also vanish this declutter mind  quickly so I can go back there and continue those floods of works.

 Even if it is holiday, my work is anytime and every time because all I do is to write a story while also sorting out any ideas related to the stories I'm making. It may be tiring but it's not because all I have to do is just to avoid being missed the deadline of my work to be published. 

So right now, I'm going to go out for a while to keep my brain chill because for the past  few days, I was distracted by my work since I met Karx.

 I always reserved my time in the morning in the bench to be able  to meet him and every time I'll do my work at house is that I always make scenario about him. 

My brain are just too messed up right now that I cram the next chapters of my work while trying to maintain my attention to it. I can't let this new routine swallowed my future life. 

I need also to finish this work on time so that I won't receive any scolding later on from my assistant.

Okay, okay, this is not what relaxing do. I should change what I think right now, so I can go back to my house and continue my work.

"ShuHuHuuHU.......", air that I release to make myself better.

Wow, I didn't think that being also here without thinking anything or quitting all those thoughts can be refreshing.

So this is what it felt to be in the present without worrying or being stuck in the mind. It's like I was just too self-centered when I always go there for almost nine years, without noticing other's presence especially the beauty of nature. Chirping birds I heard under the tree. The sound of it are just too calming. I want to last it for a longer time. 

Ahhhhhh..... so nice and soo.......

"Hi Shania, you also go here even in weekend. You really must love this place",  voice of Karx pop up that startled me.

"OH! Hello. Yeah, I love this place just from ages ago because I feel calm here when I go through some different situation", vague answer and wary I sound from the moment he pop up.

"Ahh, just like the other day when we first met. You were also struggling that time from the fights  between you and your parents. Are you not in a good terms again with your parents? You look like a little bit stress when I see you Shania earlier here", my heart stop beating for the moment hen he show  concern to me with those puppy eyes again.

"No, no, no. It was not like that. It's just that I went out here to have some peace of mind and have an oxygen from nature. I didn't know that my haggard face was too obvious to be seen publicly even though I put some make up on it HAHAHAH", I burst out my laugh with slightly being hurt from the inside because he see me through easily on how haggard I was.