Will Love Bloom? (BINI Mikha x OC)

Chapter 44: I'm Just Lying to Myself

Uno's POV

I went home after practicing before going to the BINI's house, I was still not sure why I am doing this, but I know deep inside even after everything we went through, she's the reason why I'm still here.

I knew I needed to do this like what she did for me, but I still have no idea what to say to her. While I was preparing, I was trying to form the words, even phrases of what I should say.

It was around 7 pm when I left my house and headed to theirs, John suggested to take me there, but I declined since I wanted to do this by myself.

I arrived at the gated subdivision at around 7:30 pm where I met the same guard last time I was here., "Hello." I greeted, "Hello, how can I help you?" he asked, "Uhm... I'm here for BINI Jhoanna." I replied and he gave me a look the same as last time, I just smiled as he radioed it in.

"Okay. Come in." he told me as the gate opened, I thanked him before going to their house, I could feel my heart pounding in my chest since I don't know what to do or expect. I started thinking if I should really be doing this, I stood in front of their house and messaged Jhoanna and just a few seconds later, the front door opened.

"Hi." I greeted, "Hi Uno. Thank you for coming." Jhoanna said as she let me in, I immediately saw most of the girls in the living room and one was missing, "Hello." I smiled at them, "Hi Uno." Aiah greeted as the others followed, "We need your help, Uno." Colet said, "Ate Mikha has been locked up in her room for a few days now. We are worried for her." Sheena continued, "Maybe you can talk some sense to her. We tried everything but she just wouldn't listen to us." Maloi told me, "I'll do what I can." I replied, "Where is she?" I asked, "In her room. Second floor, first door." Aiah instructed; I nodded before going upstairs.

"First door..." I repeated in my head as I began breathing in and out before stopping in front of her door.

I knocked three times but there was no answer, so I knocked again, "Leave me alone!" I heard from inside, "I don't want anything." she followed, "It's me..." I said, there was no reply, "I don't know why I'm here but the girls asked me to do something." I told her, it was still silent.

"You don't have to say anything, just listen. I know I have no right to be here..." I sat in front of the door with my back leaning to it, "I just want to tell you... I'm sorry about telling the world about us, I just felt it would kill me if I didn't. After I found out about you and Justin, I really felt my whole world crumbling. I still love you, it was no secret so it ripped me apart finding out you have someone else." I spoke.

"Your members are worried about you. I know what you are feeling right now but you are luckier than I am since you have your members. Me, on the other hand, I lost everything, but you still lend me a hand even after everything. I want to tell you that you are the sole reason I'm still here and you are the reason why I'm back being an Idol since I dreamt of sharing the stage with you." I leaned my head on the door.

"I keep telling myself, I'll forget about you, I'll move on but I'm just lying to myself. Whatever happens even if you reject me a thousand times, I will still be here for you that's how much I love you, Mikha." I closed my eyes, "I just want you to be happy even if it's not with me. I want you to achieve all your dreams even if I'm not part of your journey." I told her then I felt her leaning from the other side of the door.

"What more can I say?" I asked myself as I saw the girls, staring at me from the stairs then I got an idea of what else to do, "Can I borrow a guitar?" I mouthed, I saw Colet nod as she raced down and let me borrow her guitar.

"You know while I was going through my old stuff, I found my old notebook. Do you still remember this?" I asked her as I started playing.

(Author's Note: For a more immersive reading experience, listen to 'Musika' by Dionela.) 

I was about to finish when I heard her whisper, "Ako ang 'yong musika..." which made smile, "It's the song we wrote." She said, "Yeah. I decided to finish it. I always wanted to let you hear it first." I told her, "It's beautiful." She responded, "This one I wrote as a surprise for you. I planned to sing it to you when I ask you to become my girlfriend, but I didn't get a chance, so I want you to listen to it since I don't know if I'll be able to sing to you again." I told her as I strummed.

(Author's Note: For a more immersive reading experience, listen to 'Palagi' by TJ Monterde.)

I had my eyes close the entire I was singing since I was thinking about her, "I feel like a fool singing about how I love you over and over again when I already know, it's not like what it was back then. But it's all I can do, I wanted to let you know that you are love. Like what my friends told me, even if the whole world turns their back on you, me and your members will always be here for you." I smiled as I began to her the door unlocking, I turned my head and I saw her standing behind me.

She was looking a little pale and her hair was mess but to me, she was as beautiful as ever. I stood up and smiled, "Hi Mikhs.", she jumped to my arms engulfing me a tight hug.

"I miss you, Uno. I miss you so much." Mikha told me as she started crying, "I miss you too, Mikhs. More than you will ever know." I hugged her back.

Then I started hearing a soft snoring, I realized that she fell asleep. I looked at the girls and gestured them to come to me, "Is she okay?" Aiah asked, "I think so. She fell asleep." I told them, "Put her in her bed." Jhoanna said, "Okay." I picked Mikha up and carefully carried her inside and laid her on her bed while the girls put a blanket on her, I was about to leave when I felt a tug on my wrist, "Don't leave me again, please." I heard her mutter while asleep, "I won't. I will never leave you again, Mikhs." I told her as I sat beside her bed, holding her hand.

Mikha's POV

Last night was kind of a blur, all I could remember was hearing Uno's voice. I even thought that it was all a dream but the heavy feeling in my chest was gone so I don't know what to think anymore.

I stepped out my bedroom for the first time in days as I saw Ate Aiah, "Hi." I smiled, "MIKHA!" she lunged towards me, I almost fell backwards but managed to catch both of us. "Are you okay?" she asked with tears forming in her eyes, "Yeah. I think so. You know. I had the strangest dream last night." I told her as she supported me down the stairs, "What dream?" she asked, "That Uno was here." I said and she just smiled, "I don't think that was a dream." She told me, "What?" I was confused but then I saw him, in our kitchen cooking.

"MIKHA!" all the girls ran towards me but my focused was on Uno, who was smiling at me, "Wait... It was not a dream?" I asked and they all laughed at me, "Dream?" Ate Maloi asked, "She thought Uno being here was a dream." Ate Aiah answered, "You thought it was dream? Uno wasn't even able to go home since you were holding his hands all night." Jho commented, "What?!" I exclaimed, "Yeah. Uno stayed the night to make sure you were okay." Stacey joined, "And now, he's cooking breakfast for us." Gwen smiled as they pulled me to the kitchen.

"Good morning, Mikhs." Uno greeted, "Uh... Good morning... Hi." I blabbered, "How was your sleep?" he asked, "I... Uh... The best I had actually." I replied, "That's good to know." He smiled as she finished up cooking, "Hope you like what I cooked. Also I used most of the contents of your fridge since some of them are about to go bad." Uno remarked, "Thanks Uno." The girls said but I was just staring at him, still couldn't believe he's here and what happened last night actually happened.

"Stop staring at Uno and eat. You need to get your strength back." Ate Colet told me which made me blush, so I dug in, "How is it?" Uno asked, "It's delicious." I smiled as I continued eating.