Recovery room

Chapter 1

It all began when I was six years old. My mother met a guy on Facebook and fell head over heels. At first, I was happy too and would count the days till he came over again. It felt as if he was really starting to be part of the family. He visited us once every month before they became serious about moving in with each other. I didn't want to move in with him, but when you're six, you don't get much of a choice. So, before I left, I said goodbye to my best friend Layla promising I would visit soon. That was the last time I saw her.

A year later in 2015 my baby brother was born. I loved him more than anything. I did start to notice some changes in my parents though. My step dad started having a weird hatred against me and my mom did too. I don't know what I did wrong but they seemed so angry at me. It caused me to question if maybe it was my fault. Did I do something to disappoint them?

A few months after were rough for me. I started getting abused emotionally and physically which ruined me. I think this is where my depression started. I hated myself and hated the fact that my parents hated me. I would come to school covered in bruises and was very malnourished. I just don't understand why the school didn't do much about it. I tried making my parents gifts and drawings so they could love me like I wanted them to. I later realized there was no point. I couldn't change the way they thought of me and that was okay. It hurt bad when they would scream at me and throw me against things.

This one memory repeats in my head over and over. The way my step dad grabbed the knife and chased me in the halls of the house. The hallways were cold and eery. I remember my mom's angry voice echoing across the halls as my cries filled the room. I remember telling my baby brother to be quiet while I was shaking behind the bed. Then their footsteps entered the room while I yelled "if you hurt me you'll hurt him too" I don't remember what I did to make them this angry but I do remember how traumatized I was. I cried that whole night.