𝗨𝗡𝗘𝗫𝗣𝗘𝗖𝗧𝗘𝗗 𝗦𝗢𝗨𝗟𝗠𝗔𝗧𝗘𝗦

JUST A STARTING

Lisa Pov :

The alarm sounds made me wake up from my unhealthy sleep. Opening my eyes I found myself at the same position from yesterday night in my study table. Books; notes; copies; pen everything is satter on the table along with my "Dear Diary", which have everything about my life. I don't know when I fell asleep while writing my diary with my blurred any teary eyes *deep sigh* stretching myself while sitting on the chair I check the time on my phone and it's showing 5 o'clock in the morning. I stand up and went to washroom for doing my morning routine before starting my worst day *chuckle sadly* yeah worst day cause my days are not going good or you can say 'same shit but different day'. Coming from the washroom I did some workout to keep myself fit and healthy before heading towards the kitchen making some breakfast for me, well I don't want to eat but if Jennie find out that I went university without eating then she'll throw tantrums at me *chuckle* she's really something. I sometimes wonder, why everyone is not like her. Eating my breakfast I glance at my apartment living room clock showing 7:30 a.m I still have time till the university time. So I went to my room for study a little.Basically I'm a good student, good in study and I also like to dance along with singing my hobbies are so unique to me like doing photography, reading books, writing story but now these all are didn't making me happy or something. Everyone says I become a cold person and they aren't wrong *chuckle deeply*. My parents are enough rich to provide my university fees, apartment rent, gives me pocket money too and I also work hard in my study but they never satisfies by me, my parents always compare me with my friends, cousins, my elder sister Hwasa and especially with Jennie and Minnie. It's ok to compare me with Jennie but Minnie I just can't tolerate her and my parents knows it too but still they compare me with her. I glance at the clock and it's showing 9:30 a.m I got up from my chair and pack my back and and come out from my apartment before locking the door and headed towards the University..

Right now I'm standing in front of my university waiting for my friends. Oh there! They are coming. Wait, lemme tell my friends name - Yeji, Kim Namjoon(Joon), Momo Hirai, Min Yoongi, Chou Tzuyu, Jung Ho-seok(Hobi), Im Nayeon, Kim Seok Jin, Kim Jisoo, Jennie Kim and lastly *sigh deeply* Kim Taehyung(Tae). They all are in relationship with each other expect me and Yeji. I wish them all good morning with my cold face and voice expect Taehyung and he's also not bother of it before heading towards our class. "Guys today Professor Lee gonna take our test" Hobi said with a disgust face "can't he just cancel the test?" Tzuyu said with a boring face "why Tzuyu, why are you saying like this, you are the one who is getting low marks among us even if Hobi saying this too but it's doesn't means he didn't study. He studies well and he's a good student too like us unlike you, who only know how to insult people" Jennie said while rolling her eyes and angry tone Tzuyu just glares at her. Soon we enter the classroom which filled with so many students and sit in our seat, the couples sit with each other while I sit with Yeji. Professor Lee arrive before taking our test and we all did good in the test expect Tzuyu. Then we went to cafeteria for lunch...

We all girls are sitting on the table in cafeteria and the boys arrives but Taehyung has a annoying face and slightly glaring at me too, well it's regular thing to me. "Guys, why you all always drags her between us?" Taehyung said in angry tone while pointing at me "Tae what are you saying" Jennie said in with shocked tone, Minnie and HyunJin suddenly pop out of nowhere "why Jennie, he's saying right by the way" Minnie said while giving me mocking look "not again, can you tell me why you both suddenly pop out of nowhere and start to insult Lisa without any reason?" Yeji said with a clam yet serious tone "why Yeji they are saying right, and you know even we all know what's the reason behind insulting her and because of the reason Tae also can't tolerate her, I mean after what she did with Jennie" Tzuyu said supporting Minnie, HyunJin and Taehyung "exactly how many times I have to tell you all, that I didn't send any sex or intimacy video about Jennie and Taehyung to Jimin" I finally said in a cold yet calm tone "no it's you who send that video to Jimin, cause you always jealous to Jennie" Taehyung said while greeting his teeth and I gave him 'are you kidding me?' look "Tae stop it, I'm seeing her from kindergarten, she's not like that the way you're thinking about her, and that day it's not her who send the video to Jimin " Jisoo said with a calm voice "and why you all are blaming Lisa? think once about Jimin too, he didn't even bothered to trust Jennie and Taehyung instead he married a girl and living in Australia Australia now" Yoongi said with a cold tone "Sometimes I wonder did he even loved Jennie for once or what?" Momo said with curiosity "guys please stop it, please stop it, I can't take it anymore, he left me a long ago then why we all bringing the same topic again and again?" Jennie said while tears rolling down to her face " Baby, I'm sorry, it's me who brings the topic, please forgive me love " Taehyung said while hugging Jennie and comfort her. I couldn't help but adore them, yess adore them I know that my one sided love for Taehyung still present in my heart knowing that he never loved me or he'll never love me back too. But seeing him and Jennie all together and happy made me happy and adore them. "Lisa, let's go from here" Yeji said and drag me with her before I react or said something to her. Right now me and Yeji sitting in the university garden bench "how many days Lisa? Exactly how many days you'll be like this, all cold and quite?" Yeji said with concerns I didn't said anything just staring blankly in my lap "Lisa, I know you cry regular at night and believe me there is someone who is willing to wipes those tears of yours " Yeji with calmly "I know you still love Tae but you have to move on Lisa " Yeji said while putting her hand on my shoulder "yeah Yeji I know I've to move on but I just can't" I said in a weak voice "but I love to adore Taehyung and Jennie, they both are meant to be " I said to her "how selfless you are Lisa, Jennie was the first person you shared the news about your love for Tae and now look they both are in relationship while you adore them, you know what Lisa your future husband gonna be so luck to have you" Yeji teased me " no Yeji I don't think I'll able to move on from Taehyung, you know it very well that I'm trying to move on for so long " I said her with sad tone "no Lisa you'll move on for sure, there is someone who'll heal your wounds and trust me those days are coming soon" Yeji said while smiling but I didn't said anything cause I know she's just comforting me. "Let's go, our next class about to start " I said while standing up from the bench " yeah let's go" Yeji said and we headed towards our class...

𝕋𝕚𝕞𝕖 𝕊𝕜𝕚𝕡

"Ok student it's enough for today now" professor Han said before leaving the class and we also came out of the university. Me and Yeji was walking suddenly Jennie, Jisoo and Nayeon joins us then we just walking and talking about random things but suddenly Jennie spoke up " Lisa, I'm sorry" I turn to her with a confused " why are you saying sorry to me Jennie? " I asked her with concern " Tae again insulted you today in university, that's why I am sorry for him to you" she said with a sad face, I just chuckle deeply at his statement " it's ok Jennie It's become my habit now " I said to her with a expressionless face " but Lisa he is being hard on you day by day" Nayeon said with a annoying face " yeah right and we all know that it's not your fault Lisa" Jisoo said with concern " you know What guys I just wanna punch him so bad " Yeji said almost bursting out " guys don't be childish" I said with a cold face " but Lisa they are some how right, look I know that you still love him" Jennie said with concern I shook my head before speaking " no Jennie he's yours please try to understand, and he loves you only you so it's doesn't matter if I love him or not" I said trying to not brust out "all I want you both to be happy with each other and I know you can keep him and love him like there is no tomorrow I believe you Jennie " I said to her while looking in her eyes deeply "sure Lisa, I'll keep him and love him, the way you want to love him, it's my promise to you Lisa and I'll will never break it" she said with smile while tears rolling down from her eyes, I hug her and patting her back, my eyes are teary too but I hold it back and broke the hug before giving her a small smile "ok guys see you in later, it's getting late " Nayeon said and we all nodded before bidding the goodbye..

𝕋𝕚𝕞𝕖 𝕊𝕜𝕚𝕡

Unlocking my apartment door I went straight to my bedroom, placing my bag on the study table I went to washroom for freshen up myself. Right now I'm standing under the shower, Turing on the shower letting the cold water slide down to my naked body. As soon the cold water touch the body I close my eyes in satisfaction but remaining today's incident with Taehyung, tears started to rolling down from my eyes closed eyes to my cheek, my hot tears mixing up with the shower cold water "why Tae? Why you always did to me? Am I that bad to deserve your love? Is loving you a crime? " I chocked in my tears while saying this words " all I wanted to be with you forever, is this too much I asked for? You would never know that how much I loved you " the cold water running through my body while my hot tears rolling down from my eyes continuously, I was sobbing hard. After sometime staying like this I clam myself down, wrapping myself with bathrobe I came out from the washroom, my eyes are red, swollen I was still sobbing. Suddenly my phone rang and I checked the caller I'd before picking the call it was Seulgi Unnie my favorite cousin and best friend too, now she's work in a big company with high rang salary, she's married with her love of life, Suho Oppa who is a successful CEO, they dated for 12 years before marriage, such a cute couple they are, "h-hello" I mentally slap myself for shuttering and my voice cracked too "yeah Lili *gasp*, you again cried? Right? You again cried for that stupid guy Taehyung " Seulgi Unnie said with a surprise with scolding tone through the phone "no Seulgi Unnie, I just catch cold" I lied to her "hm, you catch cold, Lili I know you since the dippers and you're saying me now that you're not crying you just catch cold?" She questioned me, I didn't said anything just stayed silent "Lili, why you're always hurting yourself for that person who didn't even care for you" Seulgi Unnie again said "but Seulgi Unnie, I love him" I protested "but he don't Lili he don't, why are you wasting your precious tears for him who actually don't care about you? Waste your tears for him who will give value to your tears " she said in comforting tone and just sobbed "Lili let's meet tomorrow near by café, me and your Suho Oppa has something to tell you" she said with a little hesitated "what is it Seulgi Unnie?" I asked her in confusion while wiping my tears "something important which I can't tell you in phone" she said in a clam tone "ok let's meet then, tomorrow morning at 9:30 am?" I said to her "sure, ok Lili bye now, your Suho Oppa is waiting for me in car for pick me up from office, once I reach home I'll text you, ok? And till then don't cry over that stupid guy" she ordered me "*chuckle* ok mam I'll not, take care and say hello to Suho Oppa for me, bye good night" I said to her "yeah Lili my take care and good night too" she said and I just hummed before hung up. I took a deep sigh before went to kitchen and made dinner for me, after eating and doing dishes I went to my bedroom and did some study, wrote today's incident in my "Dear Diary". After that I went to my bed and laid down pulling the duvet over me and close my eyes.