𝐡𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐥𝐲 𝐝𝐞𝐯𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮, 𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐧𝐢𝐞 𝐨'𝐧𝐞𝐢𝐥

episode 2

TW - pregnancy and miscarriage (im so sorry)

"you do?" I bite my lip from nervousness. 

"can't help it, always have always will. He treats you like shit, Clodagh, I'm just glad you've finally realised it. Ash is going to be pissed" vinnie whispers, his face laid on the side of mine.

"Ash and Tom are gonna go mental" I sigh. "I can't believe Erin did that to me too. I've been a step-mother to my god-child for the past 4 years and I was none the wiser"

"Ash and Tommo will near enough kill him when they find out, Sugar will go mental at Erin. It's all gonna go tits up, Clo" Vin looks into my eyes for a second, while he talks to me. 

"it already has, Vin. I hate this fucking place. I wish Ash and I fled back home to Belfast when we had the chance to" I look up at the ceiling, I find myself fiddling with Vinnie's ring as I'm struggling to make eye contact with him while talking about leaving. 

"you can't leave me with those silly fuckers, Clodagh" he groans. "you can never leave, please" he genuinely sounds really upset of the thought of me leaving. 

"there's only one thing keeping me in Hawley, now" I smile lightly. 

"what's that?" he whispers. 

"you, Vin. I don't know how I could cope without you being around. As much as I wanna leave this shitty town, I'd only do it if you were with me" I whisper, admiring the tattoos and rings on his hand. 

"I do love you, you know" he whispers, holding me tighter. 

"I know" I nod. "I love you. A lot" I move my head closer into his neck. 

"you just mean so much to me, Darlin. I know it's wrong, but I haven't felt like this before, for anyone" he whispers, his voice shaking slightly. I smile gently, holding onto one of his hands. 

"like I was saying to Chris earlier, you make me feel so safe. You're the first thing in the morning and last thing at night, darling"

I turn my head so I'm making eye contact with him. I couldn't help but Lew a huge grin grow onto my face. 

"so whatever happens, you can't leave me. promise" he pleads. 

I nod, my eyes filling with water. "I promise, I won't leave you. ever"

he smiles, wrapping both of his arms around my torso and pulling me closer into him. "can you promise me something?" he whispers. 

"hm? anything" I respond. I have a gut feeling I know where this conversation is going to end before we go to sleep. 

"you need to leave him"

--

I wake up with my legs tangled between Vinnie's, the bed sheet barely even covering us anymore. 

I slowly lean on my elbows to look across the room to make sure Ty is okay. He looks so peaceful and innocent. This little boy needs to grow up in a town like this. 

I turn my head to look at Vinnie, he's also still fast asleep. 

I sigh, adjusting the bed sheet over our bodies again before trying to fall back asleep. 

I close my eyes, feeling at peace beside Vin. 

-RING- -RING- -RING-

"what the fuck" I mumble, reaching my arm to the bedside table while still half asleep. Failing a few times, knocking things off the shelf. Unaware how this hasn't woken the boys up.