I feel as if, I have died. Not literally, but from so much emotional, and physical pain. People tell me I'm their role model, but they don't understand my full story. It hurts me to know that I didn't get famous because I wanted to share my talent of acting, or modeling, but because if I wasn't where I am now, I wouldn't be the woman I am today. I am not as hurt as I was but the pain is still there. My grandmother told me, later in life, all of the bad things that have happened in my life will come back, and I will feel pain again, but I would just tell her:
"If it doesn't bother me now, why would it bother me later? Everything is said and done."
Then she would say, 'You'll see, remember me telling you this sweetie.'
Now I wish I could go back and tell her, I understand! How do I deal with it? It's too late now though, because she's gone now, died of old age, she was so proud of me. Lately, I've been feeling a lot more happy , because, me and my best friend Jessica moved to Los Angeles.
We moved from Northern California; our home towns; because her life is also not a walk in the park, if you know what I mean.
I'm 17 and she's 18, it's January 1, 2013. Jessica and I want to make this year better for us, and so far it is been going good, I feel as if life is easier than it was before, see I'm the kind of person who could be so sad, but then think of the bright side. For example, I could be stuck in a well, but I would just think of the bright side, at least I'm alive. This is my life, and I make the decisions.
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Is it good so far? please vote or comment , It means alot c: Should I continue? also, this is only short cause it's the prologue.
