This is a little bit messed up, but please wait until the end to comment.
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4 am I wake because I had a dream about leaving the garage door open. But I was too scared to go check, so I'm leaving it for someone else to do. Preferably when it's a little bit more light out. Now I'm up until 5 am, on my phone to "protect myself," because I think a serial killer broke in and wants to kill me. Finally, at 5:30 I attempt to go back to sleep, and I do, but only until 6:15. When I wake up, sweating while my neck and back are still hurting, and I am thinking about marrying my manager. But I know if I did that, I wouldn't be able to make him happy; he wants kids and I can't provide that for him. All because a stupid wedding song gets stuck in my head because before the second attempt to sleep. "GOING TO THE CHAPEL, AND WE'RE GOING TO GET MARRIED" 😭🧘🏼♀️
7 am - I wake up to what I believe is the sound of my mom yelling at her computer. Still in a very light phase of sleeping, I close my eyes again and try to continue my dream. Apparently it's the middle of the night, and my friend is driving around in my car. She gets out to go inside the gas station real quick, and as soon as she leaves, this creepy guy comes up to me and starts talking to me. I guess we used to be friends? 🤷🏻♀️ He looked like, John Wayne Gacy without the makeup. Tho, I gotta admit, he was a really nice fellow. Once the clown leaves, my friend returns, and we head on back to her house. From there I return home and go to bed. But I can't sleep, so I end up staying awake, and blindly watching a movie from the tv on the wall.
Now "Courtesy of the Red, White, and Blue," by the late great legend himself, Toby Keith is playing in my head. While I hug my stuffed one eye frog for the Build-A-Bear Halloween collection 2023, along with various other pillows and stuffed animals on my bed.
