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Chapter 14

Heyyyy,

Welcome back!!

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Kyrie <3

August 6th 2023

Oh my god, I need to talk about everything that happened those past months.

First of all The Eras Tour is such an amazing experience. Tiring but amazing. I got to see the fans again, I missed it so much. They're all sweetheart. I love how they dress, how they trade bracelets and they all got each other. Every time I perform I feel like nothing can touch me anymore and I hope they feel the same way because that's all I want. I'm so happy that I get to do international dates again. I know some people find it unfair that I perform more in the US than in any other country but this isn't so simple. It costs a lot of money, not only to me but all my team. And they all would have to be separate from their family more because of me. At least I'm taking a break between Asia and Europe and Poets will be out during this break

Also!! Speak Now MY VERSION is out and honestly I didn't expect the fans to love it so much. They went crazy for Long Live being added to the setlist but maybe not as much as for the video clip of I Can See You. I can't find the words to explain how grateful I am to have such a loving community and amazing friends. I'd never have been where I am right now if they weren't by my side.

I can't wait for Poets to be out. I hope it's going to surprise the fans and everyone. I was thinking on like maybe 20 songs? Maybe a bit more. And I already recorded most of them. I'd be lying if I say it doesn't hurt, because even though I already knew it was, it feels like those relationships are really over. But the album is gonna be so good! 

I can't get Guilty As Sin out of my head. I haven't finished it yet but it's already so addictive. What if she ever learns this song is about her? About what I thought since the day we first met. She'll probably be upset. And mad. And probably disgusted too.

I talked a lot to Evin, Camille's best friends, those past few months. She's a real sweetheart. Maybe a tiny bit too dynamic. But a sweetheart. I know that what I did most've been hurtful for her. I mean have your idol ever texted you about someone else? I know she was happy to help me surprising Camille a bit and planning the surprise songs that would've made Camille happy. Well not all of them cause I picked some that she wanted to. But I feel like a part of her is a bit

She helped me a lot for everything I wanted to do for Camille. She sent me audio of her talking about the shows, pictures while getting ready. And my favourite, a video of her reacting to Vigilante Shit. I can't explain how happy, and red, I was when I watched the video right after the show.

Yesterday was her birthday and I tried to make it the best experience of her life. With Evin's help of course.

I can't forget the smile she had when I knelt in front of her to give her the 22 hat. Or how pretty she was with this beautiful light blue dress. She seemed shocked when she learnt I knew it was her birthday and that I still remember her. How am I supposed to forget her? I don't know why but she makes me feel something. I have no idea but it's like there's something, a kind of connection between us.

Her sisters also seemed like sweethearts. I hope they treat her well. It broke my heart when I saw her crying during You're On Your Own, Kid. I was happy when she noticed I was going to sing it because her reaction was ...I wouldn't say adorable. It was surprising. Yeah, surprising is the word.

Then her face during Vigilante Shit. How am I supposed not to fall for her??
...
Fall for her?

This is scary, I don't think I can fall for her. Can I? What if that's what's happening?