14 july 2015 (day 1)
Hey guy's it's Girl Online.
It's summer break and I'm going on vactaion in a few days. Normally I'm very happy about this but this time is different.
I'm going on vacation on my own. I'm the kind of person who gets really scared when I try to do new things. I've never flyed on my own before this is my first time. And it drives me creazy.
(Even tho I'm going to my grandparent and family so I know I'm in good hands).
In fact I'm not really scared of being on an airplane or that the airplane is flying miles away from the ground in the air. I scared because it's my first time flying alone.
I know that children who are a lot youger then me have done this (I'm 14 years old) and maybe I'm just an drama queen😂 I don't know. But trying new things always makes me so anxious and I feel like I'm the only one who feels this way.
And before you think that I have a bad mum. She isn't. She is the best mum I can imagine and she really cares and worries about me but she couldn't go because she had money problems.
She felt sorry for me if I had to sit in home all day doing nothing while everybody was on vacation but she also din't want me to feel like I had to go if I was to scared or did not want to.
(And I wanted to go because my oldest cousin is going to marry and I bring them the ring and I didn't want to let them down.)
Before she bought the ticket she asked me many times if I was really ready for it. And if I wasn't scared too do it on my own. But I said that I could do it because I didn't want my fears to bother me.
In the beginning of the year I told myself that I wanted to do something creazy, something what I would normally say 'no' to. And I think this is the that thing. I just going to do this and see how it turns out.
Do you guy's have any tips for me?
Question of the day: what is you biggest fear and why?
My answer: Trying new things because I'm afraid they don't turn out like I expected and then I will not try again.
Btw: Have you ever fly alone? How was it?
Bye. Girl Online, going offline xxx
