Why me? 🖤Woosan🖤

8.

Wooyoung pov

It was hard for us to make time for each other the coming weeks with their tour coming up.
We talked every day and messaged each other every chance we could but we both missed seeing each other. Missed having the other near.

The next time we met it had been a two weeks. We met at the little coffee shop my mom and I always went to. We found a table in the back far from the windows.
We ordered coffee and talked. He was so relaxed and easy to talk to that it made me feel safe and happy. He told me about the upcoming shows and he was so excited. I smiled listening to him. I loved seeing him like this, smiling wide his eyes almost disappearing and those dimples.
I was going to miss him. I knew he had a tight schedule and our late night talks would be fewer.

I could see the entrance to the cafe as I sat facing it. A group of high school girls walk in, they were talking and laughing. As they walked in to find a table one of the girls looked our way and I got nervous. She whispered something to her friend and then they both looked over to where we were sitting.
"San maybe we should leave" I told him nervously
"Why? I like it here"
"There's this group of girls and I think they recognize you"
"Then we just say that they've mistaken"
"Please San" I interrupted him "I don't want you to get in trouble" I looked at him pleading
"Ok, is there a back entrance?"
"The emergency door"
"Ok let's go" he stood up grabbing my hand. We ran out laughing and found ourselves in a small alley, looking back no one seemed to have fallowed us. There were a few cars parked but no people in sight.
I rested my back against the wall, our hands still laced together "What now?"
I looked up at him only now realizing how close we were to each other. I could feel the heat from his body and if we just leaned in a bit our lips would meet.

I want to kiss him. I want to kiss him so bad.

I closed my eyes "San" it came out as a breathless whisper
I could feel him drag his thumb over my bottom lip and my entire body shiver "San" I almost begged
My words were lost against his lips. He kissed me gently but i didn't want gentleness, I needed him close. I needed him to show me how much he wanted me. I wanted to show him how much I wanted him.
I knotted my fists in his shirt pulling him closer. He groaned softly and his arms came around my waist pulling me closer .
I could feel the want by the way he pressed me against him. I had been thinking about how it would feel to kiss him but it was nothing like this. It started with soft open mouth kisses but the desperation and need to be close made the kiss more intense in just seconds. His hand moved to the back of my head tilting it slowly as his tongue graced my bottom lip. He slowly slid his tongue into my mouth and I just fallowed his movements letting him take the lead. It felt as if I was burning. My body hot and slightly shaking.
Our tongues swirled together,  I could feel our emotions merging in that moment. This was real. Our feelings were real. He wanted me just as much as I wanted him.
When we finally pulled away I was breathless, my cheeks were flushed and my legs felt weak.
I searched for San's eyes, a mixture of satisfaction and lust.
"Was this what you wanted?" San's voice was barely above a whisper, his breath still warm against mine, still so close. "Yes" I said, my pulse quickening as he reached to cup my cheek. He got closer and the space between us now non existing again

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San pov

When we came out in the alley we looked around and the coast was clear. I turned around and oh, Wooyoung was so close. His hand was still in mine as he leaned against the brick wall.
I looked at him and there was something about the way he looked at me at that moment. I could see it in his eyes, I knew what he wanted and I so desperately wanted it to.
He straightened his back "San" he said breathlessly and lowered his head his eyes now closed.
I dragged my thumb over his bottom lip to see if he would pull away.
He didn't.
I could hear his breathing become quicker. "San"
I wanted to close my eyes at the way he said my name but I also wanted to look at him as I leaned in closer connecting our lips.
He pulled me closer almost immediately and I wrapped my arms around him. He let out a needy moan and I placed my hand at the back of his head pulling him in for a deeper kiss. He surrendered in my arms as I pressed him closer.

"Was this what you wanted?" I whispered against his mouth a smirk on my face. "Yes" he breathed out and I closed the gap again.

We walked close to each other arms and hands brushing against each other occasionally. We were both a blushing mess.
I wanted to grab his hand but there were so many people around. We gave each other a shy smile and he started laughing.
"We kissed" he said looking away with a bright smile.
"Cute" I said more to my self but he heard me and I could see his ears turning red.
I walked with him to his apartment. I wanted to kiss him again but it was too risky.
I hated that I couldn't hold him close after the moment we had shared together just moments ago.
He looked down at his feet kicking the ground as we came to a stop right in front of his house.
"Talk to you later". He said sounding disappointed.
"Yea, talk to you later "
I grabbed his hand squeezing it lightly "I'll call you tonight"
"Ok". He looked at our hands and I really didn't want to leave but I had to.
He turned and walked up the stairs
"Woo!" I jumped up the stairs cupping his face and planted a kiss on his lips "See you soon" and then I left.

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"Where have you been?" Yunho asked me when I got to practice.
"Out" I just answered "Had some things to take care of "
"San, you've been sneaking out a lot lately. What are you up to?" He sounded worried.
"I'm sorry " I said feeling guilty for lying "It's nothing to worry about"
"What ever it is, be careful" he said and patted my shoulder still with worry in his eyes.
"Yea it's nothing to worry about" I just said and he nodded not pushing any further.
I walked to the changing room sitting down with a sigh. I rubbed my face thinking about the way I've been lying to my fellow members, my family. Cause that's what we were. A family. But I needed more time, I was going to tell them but not now.

We had kissed. And I was so in love with him.

We only had two weeks before I was leaving and it made me think. Would Wooyoung wait for me? I had finally found someone and it felt so unfair that we couldn't be together.

Why does love have to be so complicated?