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Maki-senpai, Inumaki-senpai and Panda-senpai were training with us today Megumi and Nobara were training I just sat down watching them being thrown I let out a sigh

"What's with that look?" Maki-senpai asked me I gave her a half smile "you've lost weights is everything alright?" She asked I simply nod looking down "it's just the summer stress." I lied through my teeth staring at the ground

"Maki-senpai! I won't be training.. I have to go somewhere." I said walking back to my dorm not even waiting for an answer I was too tired for this I thought but nothing held me back

Since today was the day I lit up a candle putting it in my room I let it light up a bit before wearing a white sweater with some baby blue bows on it and wore black Mary Jane's I took a packet of cigarettes with me

The city was loud as usually I walked through it an endless loop for me well I hope it was gonna go quick once I was there I stayed a bit outside not wanting to go in quick

"Jenny? Your back!" The funeral parlor said surprised "I shouldn't be surprised you always come to visit him." He sighed I gave him a half smile before we went into the talk

"You're still spending money on his funeral? I mean it's been years now.. I know it's hard but your the only one going to his funeral not even his family come here." The funeral parlor hummed making the funeral decoration it

The walls were white on the front were flowers his favorite flowers the holy blue lily flower I spent pretty much money on it since it's not planet here but even that I spent already much money on this funeral

"Yeah.. I will always come here you know that don't you?" I gave him a half smile before turning around peeling and orange putting it on the plate with the cigarette packet "I understand but even if you are one of my most costumer.. don't you try to forget him at some times?" He asked I looked at him not to long turning to the other side

"I simply can't.. you can't forget or try to forget people you cherish.. they will forever stay in your heart no matter what.. even if deaths apart us there will always be a memory staying with us." I sighed before covering his body with the white sheat

His body isn't even molded or anything I reserved it thought I wanted to see his face even if he's dead.

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"What ya lookin' at?" I hear someone say to me I didn't realize who so I didn't really answered back to them I just sat in the sandbox playing with the sand not caring for anything

Until I felt a hand on my shoulder making me turn around there it was a boy he looked nice that's what I thought "I'm junichiro Hiroshi ! Call me Hiro!" he was energetic for sure he held out his hand which I took

"I'm.. Jenny.." I felt my face heat up what was this feeling I bit my inner cheek we played everyday for days hours anytime we always used to met together in school and eat lunch

I held his hand we were at the aquarium I loved it there it used to be my favorite place the fishes swimming "Jenny! Look what a big jelly fish!" He laughed I giggled smiling back at him

"If we weren't here together I want us to be the jelly fish!" I said placing his hand on my hearts making him a bit flustered.

I enjoyed those days why did you have to leave me all by myself? I thought to myself not wanting to question anything anymore

Shibuya 24 December

That was the day you left me,

I truly wanted to kill every non-shaman I've always thought a life without them would be better than living with them.

They are the cause for negative things here for the curses here they couldn't protect them self without us how useless are they humans are just an emotional living thing in this world causing nothing more than stress

Why do we Shaman user have to protect them? Why is it our job to rescue their life the devil I made contract with a long time ago stayed in my heart I named it after him because he was my one and only reason not to kill all those non-shaman user

I still remember your warm hand turning cold on my face was this the responsibility for trying to live a normal life? It truly was but at what cost? Losing all your loved ones?

It was his last request for me

"Jenny.. promise me to become a sorcerer and protect yourself.. don't come too soon to me alright?" He gave me an half smile tears were dripping from my face I bit my lip

"We were suppose to live forever together here? Why are you leaving me!" It hurts but death was the only thing that wanted me "Jenny.. I love you." That was his last words

Those words left a huge impact on me.. forever.

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The memories I used to cherish the most turned to an nightmare for me everything did almost

"I still don't understand how you are not a curse user.. I mean you used to think like them didn't you?" The parlor hummed looking at the side i nod "it was a friend of mine who wanted me to become a sorcerer.. I'm only following his words.. after that I will leave to." I sighed looking at him one last time

"I will come in three months again.. make sure to take good care of him." I said putting the sheats on him

I was outside the school sitting  on a stone I lit up my cigarette taking a breath from the cigarette I let it out slowly

"I didn't expect you to smoke.. aren't you too young?" Maki-senpai asked me sitting next to me I stared down "I had a little stress.. so it's just a stress reliever.. don't worry I only smoke very rarely." I replied back

"I don't enjoy it.. but I'm stressed." I said standing up walking to my dorm.