18 years in this world and never experienced, love, romance, or whatever it is called. I even labeled my self as a hopeless romantic bitch. I crave for that love and affection but I have no idea where to find it, or how to obtain it, LOL. I keep on gas lighting myself that it will just come to me at the right time.
My friends on social media had flexed their boyfriends and girlfriends or their suitors, yet here I am stuck with sharing memes and quotes, that has nothing to do with me. As I enter the adulthood, my curiosity grew even wider but as they say curiosity kills the cat so maybe that's why I've been gatekeeping myself from the whole new world.
I wonder why everyone's getting a suitor or a boyfriend and I'm not, but I somewhat know the reason why; I just cant accept that fact. I mean I can't blame them from not choosing me, cause who would want to date a fat girl at the start of your exciting part of youth?
Up until today, nagtataka parin ako kung paano napagsasabay ng mga tao ang pag-aaral at pag-ibig, sometimes they mess up and maagang mabubuntis pero before they get pregnant they managed to balance it, right? Well weird questions fill my head and maybe experiencing it is the only answer.
I am starting college in a month and I'm very thrilled. I passed the entrance examination of one of my dream university here in Mindanao, the Mindanao State University. I am very excited to meet new people; new environment and a slight change in my life? I wonder what my college life would be, I hope its fun.
Nursing, yan ang kurso na pinaplano kong kunin. Babalik ako sa MSU soon for the final step of the enrollment and hopefully, makapasok ako sa nursing. Working in a hospital has been my dream, I wanted to be a doctor someday, God willing. Sana panigan ako ng panahon, dahil hindi ko alam kung saan ako tatakbo kung hindi ako makakapasok sa BS Nursing.
Kahit napakalayo ng univesity na iyon from my hometown, titiisin ko ang 15 hours na connecting trip para lang makapasok sa dream university ko. I am busy preparing my papers para sa exam sa DOST scholarship and also for the requirements din sa school. Kinakabahan na ako pero I am one step closer to it kaya relax lang self.
Di natin alam, pero what if doon ko mahanap yung love of my life, oh exciting. Puno ako ng mga what ifs eh no, ang hilig din i gaslight ang self. Good luck nalang siguro saakin, and I hope na sana magkatotoo yung what if na iyon. MSU is a huge university, for sure madami akong makikilala and sana sa mga makikilala may humagit pa sa friendship, madami na kasi akong friends eh baka pwedeng more than friends naman?
Hayss, I don't know, maghihintay nalang siguro ako. Wala akong kaalam-alam sa mga ganyan eh, yung sa mga movies naman hanggang movie lang naman nangyayari yun eh, di yung nangyayari sa real life kaya it's very confusing.
