This is the Prologue for (Y/N)! [Giving a bit of context]
WARNING:
Unsupportive Religious Parents Ahead
Self-Discovery
Heartbreak
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How I view the Non-Binary Reader -
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Age: 8
Dear Diary,
I don't feel right in my body anymore. I don't think I've felt right in my body for a long time, since I had a sense of gender norms and the plain difference between tomboy girls and girly boys. My Mother, before she passed away, birthed a happy-bubbly baby girl. The only issue is when I turned five, my Father married a highly religious woman, which made him go through the process of becoming accepted into her religion as well.
Happily, my father said I was too young to be accepted due to getting some blood drawn for this purpose. I may have been five, but I thought that was very creepy.
Back to what I was writing before. When I turned seven, I knew something was off with me. I loved dressing up in men's clothing, I mean who doesn't with all those cool designs compared to the girls clothing. I adore playing sports, which some girls do like. But what made me feel like I wanted to be a male was something that just clicked for me. I felt like I was always meant to be a male, no reason, it just clicked for me.
The thought of becoming a male made me happy. But...on my last birthday, it got me thinking. My cousin told me that her significant other was Non-Binary, either male or female. I loved the idea of not having to be identified as one gender and feeling the stress of picking either. So I decided on my Eighth Birthday that I would become Non-Binary!
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Age: 13
Dear Diary,
I found something about myself that kind of odds me out. I've never thought of this before and it's the first time I'm ever writing it down. I am in love with two people and I kinda want to date them both.
One is a super pretty girl in my Spanish class, she's super bubbly and always makes me smile. We haven't kissed, but I kinda want to. Is that bad? Father says kissing before marriage is a sin, but I don't see the hate.
The other is my online friend, a super nice and chill dude who gives me great advice on anything I need. His family loves me and he has asked to meet in person multiple times. He even confirmed what exactly this makes me.
I'm Pansexual and Polysexual, two p's, HA! I like anyone and am fine with dating more than one person at a time, but I am alright with just one person only if the other isn't alright with it.
My friend wasn't into it while the girl, I never told her I liked her. But we did kiss once, in the bathroom stall. Okay, maybe more than once. It was super duper nice.
I'm scared to tell my parents, what if they hate me? They can't, right? It's illegal, right? I'm thinking of telling my Father and Step-Mother tonight! Wish me luck!
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Age: 16
Dear Diary,
I am at the train station. Two luggage's with all the things to my name. Last time I wrote in this, I chickened out of confessing to my parents. Yet, I did tonight. I never saw the disgust on my Father's face before this moment. Pure hatred. My Step-Mother just smirked and stayed with that face until I went upstairs, packed my stuff and left.
I figured out that I can't do Poly-Relationships. I'm too much of an attention hog to be in one. I was never in a poly-relationship, yet only one. With that Pretty Hispanic Girl, her name was Eliana. She didn't care if I was Pansexual or Non-Binary. She was super nice and caring.
I was immature and a brat. I was so toxically jealous that I was the reason our relationship sunk down. I was scared to let anyone know I was dating and that our relationship was more of a friendship. It was my fault that it ended, she broke up with me. It was my fault, it always was. I cried for five days straight until I finally confessed to my parents the truth.
I called my online friend, Marco, and asked if I could stay with him and go to school with him. I explained everything, he just listened and agreed. He said his family would accept me with open arms. I didn't want a new family, I just wanted support, friends and someone to love me.
I mean...what could go wrong at a new high school, huh?
Well, my train is here. Till next time, Diary. This is (Y/N) (L/N), signing off for a while. <3
