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🍤x🧸 ... Bedridden [ANGST, TW]

TW: suicide attempt.
I made this to project, please be respectful.
Hatehugs angst

Ah. Fuck.

Everyone hates me. Everyone. Why can't I be different? Where is my freedom? Why am I so horrible?

I don't want to hurt him anymore.

God. I hate myself.
Why am I like this.

I stare at the bottles hidden in the clusters of airhorns in my bedside drawer.

It wouldn't hurt to experiment a little.

I start slow, taking around two at once continuously. They were average dosages of ibuprofen.

I felt dizzier as I gradually took more at once. Fuck. Maybe I should just take the whole bottle.

So I did.

God. I felt horrible.

No one would notice anyway. Theyll be better off.

I knew it was starting to take effect. I felt nauseous, and the headache was evident. I couldn't see correctly at ALL. Everything was.. hazy...

I heard a familiar knock. Shit.

I quickly swiped the bottles back into the drawer, being too dizzy to even realize that some of the contents from the second bottle had dropped.

I held back a weak cough, speaking in a hushed yell.

" What. "

...

Goob.

" Are you okay? I- I'm sorry.. for um. That. For... being so stupid earlier. "

He let himself in as I just huddled under the blanket, trying to hide my weakness.

" I- I made you something.. to make up for it. "

Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck I'm so stupid. Of course he's worth living for. What if it works? He cares.

" Okay.. "

I try to hide the panic in my voice, fidgeting with my bandages.

" Here..! "

He walks towards my bed. I cough- covering my mouth. He was holding a giftbox, and... he noticed the pills.

" S-Shrimpo-? "

He tried to pick them up. Shit. Shit. Shit. No no no- aujggjjjjhhhhhhh.....

" Whuh?... "

I just had to act dumb.

" Why are there.. pills everywhere? What are these? "

...

I fucking give up.

" Um.. my head hurts.. so.... "

..

Excuses.

He didn't believe me.

He hugged me tighter than his teddy bear.

There's the warmth of his embrace.

" I'm sorry, I- I'm sorry I wasn't here sooner..! "

He started to tear up. He was scared of losing me. Why..??

Why would ANYONE care.

I stare dully at nothing. I felt too weak to reciprocate.

" Hh.. Im gonna go get Brightney and Sprout..! "

It was a little late. But... wow. Would they even care enough to actually hh-..

Wait.

This- this means being vulnerable in front of THEM. No way. I tried to object, but he was already gone. Oh.

Oh fuck
Shit
Shit
Shit
Why did I do this.

Im not depressed at all 😛