I still remember

Why?

Why you?

This was the question I asked myself again and again and again as I drowned myself in the lake created by my own sorrow.

Why you? Of all the billion people on the planet it had to be you that I fell for. 

When I think of how all of this began, I still can't believe I fell for you. 

Stories usually start from the beginning and get around to the present or the end. But this is not that type of story. This is not a story at all in fact. It is a record and a way for me to express my pain.

I woke up today morning feeling the same way I do every day. 'La douleur exquise', would be the term to explain that feeling, what does it mean? It means the exquisite pain of unrequited love.

I carried on with my regular schedule. But as I carried on with my day, I felt like I couldn't take that pain anymore. It was so intense that in fact I could feel it physically. I desperately needed someone to vent to and that would usually be you but I can't vent to you about you now can I.

So I decided that I will share my memories to the world. So here I am.