Till the day that i die

Chapter 11

Time skip. After 3 months.

Angel's pov.

3 months. Exactly 3 months ago, i lost the love of my life. 3 months ago, life took away my happines. 3 months ago, my life was ruined. I dont know why I am living in life, maybe for my dad, for my siblings but not for myself. I am not enjoying life anymore. I have no color in life, everything is black and white again, cause Frank was the color, my happines, the reason i was living. Now I am in LA. In my apartment. I am not living in Norway anymore probably i will never live there ever again. Cause every street, every cafe, every corner is reminding me of Frank. I am not living in our house too, that we had in LA. I sold it and gave the money for charity. I wont live here too much, till i graduate university. I am not talking to Billie anymore. She was calling me or texting me everyday for a month, then i changed my number. I know that she is talking to my dad but idc. I have no instagram or any social media anymore. I dont know what to do. I feel empty all the time. If its not my dad, i would be gone already. Happy with Frank. My thoughts were stopped by Aliyah shaking me 'Angel what do u want for lunch?' 'Uh. Idc. I am not hungry at all' 'U always not hungry. Come on, lets get ready and go to the restaurant. Then we will go shopping. Hm? What do u think? Idc what do u think. We r going. Come oooon'. She is trying to get me out of this house for 3 days. I have no energy to go somewhere. Not interested in anything. 'Not again Angel. Come on stand up' she dragged me out of the bed. I stood up and went to bathroom. I dont want to look in the mirror cause i look horrible. I washed my face, brushed my teeth. I am not doing any yoga or any skincare anymore. Cause there is noone to tell me that I am beautiful without any of this. I put on sweatpants and one of Franks longsleeve. I put my hair in a ponytail but no make up. 'U ready?' Aliyah asked. I nodded my head. 'Angel. Please. Your pretty face is not that much pretty when u r not smiling.' she said. I forced smile. 'There is my girl. I love u' she said. I cant say that word. 'Mhm. Lets go?' I asked 'Yeah, come on'. She took my hand and exit the apartment. She is driving cause i have no energy to drive. She played some of Billie's song. I immediately turn it off. I guess she understood me cause she didnt say a word. First we went to restaurant and ordered our food. I ordered pasta and water. 'Look at me. Please dont give up. Try to live and enjoy your life. I think Frank want u to be happy and live your life' she said looking right into my eyes. 'Ok' I barely said. Waiter brang our food. 'Oh look how tasty it is' she said. I smiled a little. I took a bite but then felt nauseus and ran to restroom. Its happening a lot past times. 'Angel, u good?' Aliyah asked taking my hair from my face. When i was about to answer i vommited again. 'Its okay. Let it out' she said rubbing my back soothingly. I stood up but then felt lightheaded almost felling. 'Angel' she hold me. 'I am okay. Just a little a bit lightheaded' I said and washed my mouth. 'But Angel u didnt eat anything and its happening a lot' she said 'I know. Dont worry. I am good' I said. She shook her head 'Ok, u wanna go home?' she asked and i nodded my head 'Lets go then'. We exit the restroom and I gave her my card to pay. She payed then we sat in the car. Out of nowhere i craved some ice cream. 'Do we have an ice cream?' I asked 'No, why?' 'I want some. Can we go and buy some?' I asked 'Of course we can. We will buy thousonds of ice creams' she said happily. We reached ice cream store and parked our car. When i was about to speak Aliyah's phone rang. I waited for her to end. 'What's up?' I asked 'Oh again this stupid  manager' she said 'U can go. I will got home by myself' 'No u cant. I wont allow it' she said 'Omg i am not a kid. U can go' 'Okay. U really be okay, yeah?' 'I will dont worry' I said. We hugged and said our goodbyes. I entered the store and looked for mint ice cream. I have never tried it but i am craving it like my life depends on it. 'Hi, can u give me mint ice cream?' 'Yes your order will be ready in a minute' the boy said. He really looked like Frank. Or its just me trying to find him in everyone. I waited there for a minute and then the boy called me, telling me that my order is ready. I went to him 'Your order is ready' he said, i gave him my card and got my ice cream. I immediately tasted it and moaned out of pleasure. The boy looked at me and chukled 'What u chuckling about?' I asked 'Sorry, u reminded me of my wife when she was pregnant' he said 'Are u pregnant?' he asked 'No I am not' I said not trusting myself about it. He gave me my card and I left the store. What if I am really pregnant? But I cant be. I didnt have sex with anyone for 3 months. But I cant deal with it, I should check it. I walked to pharmacy that was near to ice cream store while eating my ice cream. 'Hello, um can u give me 2 pregnancy tests?' 'Yes, one minute'. The nice lady gave it to me i payed and thanked her and left. I called uber and waited. After about 15 minutes i got to my apartment. I thanked the driver, payed and left. I am too much worried and scared. I entered my room and immediately went to bathroom. I peed in a cup and put both of tests to it. Then I changed my clothes and waited for the results. What if I am really pregnant? How I can raise my child all by myself? Am I ready to have a baby? What if I cant be enough for my kid? The thoughts like that bothered me. I looked at watch and it was time. I am afraid of what could happen. I entered ro bathroom and looked at the pregnancy tests. I took a deep breath and got them. My hands are shaking so bad. 'For 1, 2, 3' I said to myself. I count to 1, 2, 3 and opened it...