Built For Blame » Ashton Irwin. |On Hold|

Chapter 1

Dear Life, God and The World,

My mothers beatings today wasn't that greatest. She used a boat paddle from years ago that she found in our shed. My arms, stomach, legs and my bum is bruised and swelled. Tomorrows my birthday 7/15/98. They probably won't care. They never care...no one does. I'm the outcast at school. What did I ever do to deserve this?

I thought I was pretty good growing up. Once my mother became pregnant, she started hating me. Its like everyones out to get me. I can't take this anymore. I know I say that all the time...but I truly mean it! I can't take it. My life sucks. All I was just Built For Blame.

If something happens like...Brendon spills his drink on the white table cloth, I'm blamed for it. She's (my mother) like, "He's only 2. He doesn't know any better. Be a big sister and take the blame!"...see what I mean? Shes an evil bitch. So is my father well...not an evil bitch but hes a stupid drunk fuck. He goes out and drinks till he cant see. I don't know how my mother puts up with it-

"Mariana!" My mother called from upstairs.

-Shit. I got to go the "Evil Bitch" needs me. Far well, so long till another day.

~M

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"Yes?!" I yelled from my room.

"Get your ass up here. Its time for school!"

I looked at the time. 7:14. The bus gets here at 7:30.

I ran to my closet.

My outfit consisted

~Varsity jacket

~Ripped skinny jeans

~Vans

~My glasses

~My Panic! At The Disco -Band T.

The time was now 7:21. I ran into my bathroom. Yup. I have my own bathroom down in the basement...I mean my room...Anyways I covered all the visible bruises and scars with makeup. I ran upstairs to see my mother standing there, looking angry.

"I told you its time to go!" She threw me my backpack and shoved me out the door. Since I was pushed and their was stairs in front of the door. I face planted into the sidewalk. I got up and heard laughing. Ashton, Luke and their girlfriends. Zoella (Ashton's girl) and Lily (Luke's girl). I started to walk again but this time, I put in my earbuds and listened to Down by Jason Walker. Hes really good. To me, its like all of his songs almost match my life. You may not think so, but to me...it...it does.

I got to school. I'm only 3-16 minutes late. I never got the bus because I was getting up from face-planting into the sidewalk. Anyways, I got to my locker and entered the combination, 4-22-34. (A/N-Was my 6th grade lock combination xD)

I opened my locker and grabbed my science books and notebooks. I looked at my schedule.

Monday:
A- Art: No
B- Science: Calum & Michael
C- Health: Ashton
D- Music: Luke & Michael
Lunch: All
E- History: Ashton & Luke & Calum
F- Maths: Michael & Ashton
G- English: Luke

Great Arts first. I don't have anyone in that class, so that's good but our Sub is a total ass. I have science after and the room is across from Art, so why not bring you're science stuff with you?

Anyway, as I made my way down to Art. I got to class and sat down. I don't have any of them (Luke, Ashton, Calum and Michael) so I'm good...I guess. Soon our Sub came in. Mr. Snobgrass. I only like him for his name. I mean, c'mon, Mr. Snobgrass? Tell me that's not funny!

"Alright class, we're gonna be doing a painting or drawing on what you feel on the inside. Draw/paint anything alright? It's not due till next Monday" Mr. Snobgrass said. I got up and got the materials and started drawing. I started drawing what I felt on the inside. I felt like no one loves/likes me. No one wants me. I'm hated for something I never did. Well, I kinda came into this world, but that's not my fault. Soon enough, I got 2/6 of the drawing down.

*Next Period: Science*

"Great, science" I whispered as I entered the classroom. I sat down in my seat, all the way in the back and waited for the teacher to come.

*Sorry, being lazy and skipping science*
*Next Period: Health*

"I heard that they're starting a new baby project" One whispered.

"I know, I feel bad for whoever gets to be paired up with that skank" Another said. I kept me head down and silently prayed that the tears welling up in my eyes, wouldn't fall.

"Setting down class. Today we're gonna be doing the...Baby Project!" Mrs. Nelson said, writing it on the board. Half the class groaned, me being one the kids who did. "Now kids, don't give me that. it'll be fun! Alright, Bean? Help me pass out the question sheets" Bean came over to me and gave me on and another with a bunch of girl and boy names. I looked at both sheets of paper. One was a questionnaire and the other, well, like I said. A paper with a bunch of girl and boy names.

"If you look on the first paper, I already written your partners" I looked to see Ashton Irwin was my partner. I could already hear the groan from him and some whispers to him, saying that they feel bad for him.

"Alright, circle and fill in the questions and write in the names for your kids"

Name: Mariana Cross.
Age: 17.
Hight: 5'3".
Weight: 129lbs.
One, Twins, or Triplets?: Twins.
Gender(s): Both girls.
Name(s) Please circle and write the name(s): Rachel and Chassidy.
Father: Ashton Irwin.
His Age: 18.
His Hight: 6'3".
His Weight: Guess: 145lbs.
Mother's Signature: Mariana Cross

"Alright, once done. Please pass both papers in and I'll assign the baby dolls to you and both get a notebook to write in to evaluate each other on how this project goes" Mrs. Nelson said. I passed in my papers and sat back at my seat, after I grabbed a notebook.

*****
OMG I FUCKING UPDATED THIS FUCKING BOOK!!!! I FEEL VERY HAPPY AND DID YOU KNOW, THAT I STARTED THIS FUCKING BOOK ON JUNE 14, 2015???? IT'S BEEN A FREAKING YEAR! I KNOW, I HAVEN'T UPDATED IN OVER A YEAR, BUT JUNE 15, 2016, I UPDATED BUILD FOR BLAME! I'VE BEEN INBOXED, ASKING ME TO UPDATE AND HERE YOU GO! I UPDATED. HOPED YOU LIKED IT.

ALRIGHT, I LOVEE YOU ALL SO MUCH MY JADY BUNCH! BYEBYE ALSO, I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M STILL IN CAPSLOCK, BUT...IDK...I'LL STOP NOW. Okay, bye bye! <3