The Balance of Red and Blue

"For how long will sorrow pierce my soul?"

Chapter 4
Korea
Time:4:45 Date: 1st January 2024
Seoul tower ville

Sunoo pov

"A crushing weight presses upon me, suffocating my soul. I yearn to break free, yet find myself helplessly trapped."

Emmoa: You can't stop Sunoo.

Sunoo: Is that you, Emmoa?

Emmoa: Yes, my love, it's me.

Sunoo:Emmoa, where did you go? My heart aches with every passing moment, longing for your presence. Fear gripped me, whispering I'd forget the melody of your voice.
Exhausted, I surrender. The weight of trying crushes me. Your words echo: 'Everything will work out in the end. Yet, with each step forward, the pain deepens.

("He stifled a sob, momentarily stilling the storm of emotions that threatened to overwhelm him.") He continues

In darkness, I drown. Tears fall like midnight rain, every night. The world's gaze feels suffocating. Will disappearing bring solace? Or will shadows follow?

Will happiness ever find me? Or will I remain lost, forever chasing the light?"
"sobbing"

Emmoa: My love, forgive me for abandoning you to darkness. I know the depths of your pain; your whispers still echo within me.
I, too, have walked the weary path, baby. My heart understands yours, for we've shared the weight of shadows. Selfishness consumed me, but you saw beyond. Your compassion enveloped me, soothing my soul.
Oh, my love my poor baby I'm sorry for the tears I've caused. I'm sorry I'm so selfish-

"Sunoo grasped her hand tenderly, his lips brushing against her skin as tears streamed down his face, and whispered words of devotion."

Sunoo: Emmoa you're not selfish; your heart beats for others alone. You sacrificed your own light for our shadows to fade.
I never blamed you; Emmoa, I only adore. Don't leave me now, please. I'm exhausted, longing for our family's warmth.
When Appa returns, I pray our home knows peace. No yelling, no tears, no scars. Just laughter, like other families.
I yearn for happiness, a simple dream.
Is it greedy to wish for joy? This once, I'll be selfish; I'll claim it. Let us be whole, a family bound by love, free from pain's dark chains."

"Overwhelmed with emotion, the mother and son wept together, their hearts pouring out tears in unison."

Emmoa: oh my poor baby you still want that.

Sunoo nodded his head

Emmoa wept, asking :'My poor baby, do you really still want that?'

Sunoo nodded in agreement.

Emmoa: Oh, baby, I know how strong you are
The way you bore the brunt of Father's wrath, for us whole.You stood tall, a shield against life's raging storms, and the way you stood up for our family, defending us from others. You were always there for us, but we failed to protect you. I failed to protect you, my child. You were always living so fiercely. I don't know where it all went wrong."

Sunoo: I too wonder where I went wrong mom . Ever since I was a child, I've carried this curse; maybe that's why I'm living so fiercely. But when I look back, I'm all by myself, consumed by hazy shadows that swallow me whole.
Is it anxiety or depression? Or is it a creature born of regret? Perhaps it's the me that emerged from loneliness.In the silence, I question my soul.Seeking answers, I search the past, To unravel the threads that forever will last.

Emmoa: Sunoo my child ,You were never a curse, but a radiant blessing, A shining star that illuminated my life's journey. Forever and always, you'll be a precious gift.Your Emmoa loves you more than words can say, More than the stars shine bright in the evening sky. Forgive me, dear one, for I must depart, But know that my love remains, forever in your heart. Come find me, my child, where time and space align.