light as a wind

🪼too harsh?🐶

‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ Thursday ☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

each week that thame tried to make jin his singer,he was always left alone,as jin would just simply walk away..even after a few month,nothing really changed..every time thame just wanted to give up,but he couldn't. he didnt want to give up,he wanted to keep going no matter what, up until jin would say yes,and he felt like today was the day. he thought that today was different,he felt so confident in himself,so sure that jin would say yes...
as he walked through the door,he saw jin.he was sitting there,minding his own business,calm and collected as always. thame sighed and walked up to jin,sitting right beside him,taking a breath to say something but then.."no." jin answered even before thame could say a single word..thame got visibly upset..."maybe joong is right..i am kind of harsh with words.." jin wasnt as calm as he looked like. as an introverted person he often found himself overthinking about everything..how he sings,what he wears,what people think about him..every time when he's trying to say something his mouth just blurs it out,making what is supposed to be a normal response harsh. jin noticed it even before joong could point it out,because jin would often think if the fact that he was overthinking visible,but considering how joong talks about him being "always calm" made him truly a little calmer. he didn't know what he was doing half of the time,and for other half? it wasnt going as it was supposed to,not according Jin's plans. he felt like he needed to let things go easily,something he couldnt quite do..he would simply find himself stressing over something small that at the end simply didnt matter.so last few months he became calmer,he decided to actually listen to his parents and sister,the only ones he could discuss it with,and live with "if you cant do anything about it,dont stress about it" in mind. he thought about it alot,and found it useful throwing unnecessary emotions away, and of course sometimes, he would still find himself stressing over small things again, because its not easy to switch your mindset that easily,but he still tried his best,in not only not overthinking,but also making his responses more "friendly". but thinking about it now..he failed to do that. even if he is testing thame, he felt like it wasnt fair to actually be that harsh to someone who's just trying to be friends with person, and as he wanted to apologize,thame got up and walked away,closing the door and going home.

Thame's pov~~~~

"no."...."ouch..that hurt. i dont know if i want him as my singer anymore.." thame got upset. why would he respond to him with no emotion, no empathy at all..its not like thame did something to cause that reaction..or did he? he thought about it. he decided to go home and simply think about it. "maybe he doesn't really like me?"..."or maybe im too annoying?"..."does he maybe feel pressured by me or something..?"..."i think ill give up after all.." and just as he was entering Perth's dorm,where the three friends would usually hangout, he saw both perth and war already waiting for him. "whats with the face?" asked war.."yea,did someone say something to you or what?" perth added,standing up from his bed and observing thame "im not in the mood." answered thame, throwing his backpack on the floor "poor backpack..its not like its backpacks fault,so why are you treating it like that" said war in attempt to cheer thame up "tell us what happened and we'll try to figure it out together okay?"- said perth as they sat down.

note~
didn't know where to end it 😃