HoneyTrouble// Chanin FF

I made carrot soup

A loud bang echoed through the corridor "You disgusting peace of shit!" I turned around just to see a young boy being pinned agains a locker by an older student.

"What did I even do?" the younger asked, tears forming in his eyes, a little crowd forming around the two.

Jeongin could barely see the face of the older, but he could recognize him as the captain of the soccer team. Jackson Wang, he's known for being homophobic and the teachers knew, but nobody did anything about it. "You're a fucking homo, you're a fag!" The older yelled, he then let the younger fall on the ground and kicked him. A little whimper escaped the little boys mouth. "That's sickening, you know!" He now kicked him a second time.

"Jeongin, we shouldn't be watching that, it's terrible" Jisung grabbed my arm and pulled me out of the corridor, to the cafeteria. He stopped at the entrance and let go of my arm, then walked to Felix and Seungmin, who sat at one table. As we sat down, Seungmin looked up from his book and put it away "Where have you been?" He asked.

"A young boy got beaten up, or still is" "Why?" Felix now joined their conversation, now having a worried expression on his face.

Jisung put a spoon-full of rice into his mouth, that he had stolen from Seungmins plade. "He's gay" he muffled out. The other boys now mouthed an Oh!

While Jisung continued to stuff rice into his mouth, Seungmin started to read again.

Felix still looked worried, rather anxious. But I just felt guilty, I think that's the best way to describe it. Would they do that to us too? Just thinking about it made me sick.

This school's hell when you're not straight or rich.

We just talked for a while until the bell rang and the students slowly began to make their way to class.

"We should go Minni, Mr. Park hates us enough already." I said, getting a nod from Seungmin in response. We stood up and said our goodbyes. Felix and Jisung had an other subject, so Seungmin and I walked alone through the corridor to chemistry class.

"Seungmin Hyung?" I called him "I thought Felix came out a year ago?" He nodded looking at me "Then why did he looked so anxious as Jisung mentioned the boy?" Seungmin had now a serious expression on.

"He thinks that he just hasn't got beaten up because his parents are good with the principle and could easily afford a lawyer. So that when no one sees it, that they're just going to beat him to death or something"

Felix never really talked about his fears, he was always too busy with rescuing the mental health of Jisung, Seungmin and me. But sometimes his behavior was kinda off, especially when we were just two and I wanted to go the toilet or some and had to leave him alone, and now it made sense for me.

I was still thinking about Felix's behavior as we sat ourselves on our usual seats and got out our stuff.

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As I walked through the door of my parents' flat, my mother came up to me and hugged me tightly. She did that almost every day because she thinks that I don't have the best time at school because I'm gay, but I always tell her that I'm fine. I mean I always have my guard on and the others too, but at least we haven't go beaten up yet.

Five months ago I came out to my parents, since then my father always tries to"disgay" me. That's the reason I try to skip eating with them or just avoid him.

"I made carrot soup today, hope you'll like it" his mother said with a smile on her face. She always tries to make things easier for me and I love her for that.

Right after I dropped my bag on the ground she dragged me into the dining room. I sat down, my father already sitting there. "How's your day going, son?" I sighed, I knew that he just asked me that, when he planned something. "It's good, how 'bout yours?" "Very good, you know? One of my coworkers has a really beautiful daughter, and as luck would have it, she's interested in you" I knew exactly that that was a lie, I'm okey looking, yeah, but not as much that a stranger that I had never seen is interested in me.

I exhaled in annoyance and raced my eyebrows, I was sick of his tries, even if I know that the man just wanted to do something "good".

"Darling, please, not again. You have tried often enough. Leave it alone now." Mum sat down beside her husband.

My father now had a serious facial expression"Let me do it, I'm just trying to make at least something good come out of him. What else would he be good for?"

That was enough for me. I was doing everything, really everything since he tried to change me the first time, so he would accept me. I was learning non stop to have good grades and make him happy. I even stopped to take Felix home when he was there because he thought that I got that from him and that all that 'I like boys' thing was an idea that Felix put in my head. That was all just bullshit.

I stood up abruptly, causing the chair I was sitting on to fall over with a loud bang. My parents both looked at me, my father with anger and mum with pity, slowly turning into anger as well. I turned around and walked over to my room, little tears building up in my eyes. My father's words hit me hard and the feeling of not being enough overcame me again. When I entered my bedroom I slammed the door shut and flopped onto the bed, tears now running down my cheeks.

I curled up into the mattress with my balked over me, now holding a big teddy-bear in my arms. I'll never do anything for that asshole of a father again.

It was silent for a couple of seconds, then I could hear mum jell at my father "That really didn't have to happen!"

Silence.

"Now he hates us! And when he's older, he will remember that and never come to visit or talk to us again! You can't just say something like that! He's 15, he's still a baby!"

"But he's a looser, and when we don't change that now, he'll be like that for ever!" the male voice yelled back.

"We will not change him!" Mum's voice sounded furious "He's perfect how he is! And when you don't calm down now, you can sleep on the couch tonight." That was the last thing she said to him. 

It was silent again for a bunch of seconds before I heard the door open "Jeongin sweetie" my mum said in a quiet voice "I'm sorry that he's like that" she apologized as she closed the door again and sat down on my bed beside me. I was facing the wall so I couldn't see her expression, but I knew that she was looking at me with pity. She always looked like that when her husband talked shit. 

I hugged my teddy tighter as I felt her hand on my head, starting to caress my hair. I loved when someone did that, it was just do calming.

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Hey, it's me, but already from chapter 22. I just wanted to say that I'm rewriting the first 7 chapters (ig) and that the POV isn't always the same and that the chapters will definitely get longer from the chapter "Just some guys". So just that you know. Bye