(later to be named)

Thoughts

"How do you define the word joy. Is it something that can be made? Can you touch it? If people say that they can feel joy. Then why can I not see it or touch it? Why is it call a feeling when there is nothing to feel?" Muttering to myself before bringing my head up to be met by the gaze of my own reflection in the delicate mirror that hung before me. Brushing my hair aside from my face as I hold my gaze before sliding my glance to a small and intricately designed picture frame in which is encased a picture with couple who both have a smile that seem to hold no lie. With a brief glance and a small yet sincere smile. I got up and began to begin my day.

With the pervious thoughts still quite present I stand up and exit my room and enter into a large empty hall. Still dwelling on what I had said earlier I stumble down the hall and then come to a stair case where I briefly take my mind off what I said to focus on making my way down the stairs. As soon as I made it to the last step I was right back to what had been said.
"Good morning madam. Your breakfast is prepared and waiting on you in the dinning area." Waka said with a simple bow.
".... Ah.. Yes. Thank you but I will not be eating this morning. I have... Things to attend to.." I say half way mumbling.
"As you wish I will have it cleaned up. Also today you have a meeting scheduled with your event coordinators." With another bow he hands my planner to me.
"Ah yes.. Alright... Remind me to address him about the location and the invite list. Also schedule a meeting with my designer. We have important things to discuss. Also cancel all my appointments tomorrow." Grabbing my planner I walk to the front door and open it slightly before heading out.

With that I found myself outside and in my car. I placed my keys in the ignition and turned the car over and the engine begins to hum. As soon as I pulled out of the parking spot my cell phone began to ring.
"Hello?" I say as I place the phone to my ear.
"Is this the number of Ms. Anders?" The gruff sounding gentlemen asked.
"Yes. May I ask who is this is?" I said as I was pulling up to the front gate.
"Ah yes. How rude of me. I am Grant Leventh the owner of Leventh corporations. I was calling to see if you could come by my office today. I wanted to discuss a business proposal." Grant said.
"A business proposal? What exactly is this is business proposal?" I struggled to hold the phone as I took a sharp turn.
"It will help further both of our companies. If you would like to further our conversation please come by my office later today. Let's say around two o'clock?" He said with a smile.
"How about two thirty? I have a meeting at two." I say pulling into a parking lot.
"Alright then it is settled. I shall see you at two thirty." With those final words he hung up.
With a small sigh I place my forehead against my steering wheel.
"Alright. First Waka. Then coffee." I Muter to my self as I reach over and select Wakas number.
"Hello madam. How can I assist you?" The middle age butler asked.
"Waka I need you to cancel any appointments after two o'clock. I have an important meeting with Levenths owner." I explain to him as I write it down in my planner.
"As you wish Ms. Anders but I would like to inform you that you have a dinner scheduled with Mr. Edward Raven at 6:30."he said with a small amount of worry in his voice.
"Yes. About that. Please call him and tell him that we will have to rescheduled for later..." I bite my lip as I wait for his reply.
"As you wish madam... But if you would allow me to speak my mind." He said.
Before I said any thing I sigh. "Speak as you will."
"You can not just keep running away from this. You need to start to think about settling down. For the sake of your company." I could hear worry in his voice.
"Waka... I do not have time to discuss this.. If that's all you have to say I will be hanging up." Right before I hang I hang up Waka says one last thing before I manage to hang up on him. With that I gathered my stuff and exited my car. I placed my sunglasses on my face and made my way into the front of a massive building which was labeled with huge lettering saying "Anders entertainment". With one last long sigh I entered into the massive building. As I walk through the door many bow and wish me a good morning and a good day but I was to far into my thoughts to acknowledge what they were all saying.
"For your fathers sake and mothers sake please consider it." Hearing these word from his mouth made me furious but yet at the same time sad.
'Why had he said that. He knows he is not suppose to bring them up.' I thought to myself as I was entering an elevator without thinking. 'Why bring them up now? Its not like it will male a difference...' With out realizing where I was I dropped my head and muttered to myself. "Why bring them up now. Its not like I care what they think. They abandoned me..." I reached my hand up to wipe away what seem to feel like sweat on my face. When I skimmed my face with the tips of my fingers I brush again my cheek and felt a stream of water run across my fingers. I slowly brought my fingers to the front of my face to see what had streamed acrossy fingers. When I opened my eyes I found a tear.
"What is this?!" I exclaimed.
"Madam? Are you alright?" The elevator clerk asked.
I jolted at the sound of his voice unaware of where I was. I took a quick glance around and became aware of my surroundings.
"Yes I am." I said standing up straight.
"Would you like me to stop the elevator?" He said looking at me in the state I was currently in.
"No. Just do not make anyone aware of what you saw for heard today." I reached into my purse and pulled out my wallet and handed him a couple of one hundred dollar bills. "This should compensate for your silence and your trouble."
"I am sorry but I can not take this. You can trust me to keep this quiet."he smiled sweetly.
When he said that I was caught off guard. "...what?" Is all I could muster up to say. 'Really nice why to make yourself look like a complete idiot. Nice Anabell. Just nice.' I stood there like a complete idiot as my subconscious was beating up inside.
"Do not worry. Your secret is safe with me. You do nor have to pay me for that." He smiled again as we arrived to the top floor. "And we have arrived to your floor madam President. Have a good day." He said as the doors of the elevator closed.
Again I was dumbfounded because if the whole situation. 'How could have you let this happen you idi-' my thoughts were cut short by the voice of my assistant.
"Oh! Madam President. I had no clue you were coming into the office today." The young assistant said with worry in her voice.
"Yes. I did not plan to come in today bit something urgent came up. Brazier! Make yourself useful and bring Jeremy to my office." I exclaim an order with the utmost importance.
"Y-yes Madam President!" The timidly young man screamed and then ran off.
"Jessica! Prepare drink and bring them into my office. Andrew. Get the rest of Jeremy's group." I shout as I make my way to my office. With those final words I enter into my office and prepare for my guests.