The only one

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I've always tried to plan my future,

guessing what could happen

 and what I should do. 

Everything was already carefully planned,

 but then love came

and messed it all up.

You, red-headed,

 messed up my plans.

 But, you know what...

 It's better like that 

Because I found love again,

 after so much time.

 I've already started missing the feeling,

 so thanks very much.

I thought perhaps you didn't like me,

 but that didn't matter.

 The mere feeling of being in love

 made me feel happy and excited.

 Loving you was beautiful in itself.

 Does it even make sense?

Gosh... love is so weird,

 but I like how it feels.

 I like feeling my heart beating rapidly

 when I'm with you.

 I like feeling the butterflies in my stomach.

 I like feeling the warm blush on my face.

 I like feeling love, real love.

 Not the one I was taught. 

That one was just toxic,

fake and disgusting love.

Teach me what is love, my dear.

 Teach me what's real love.

 Genuine and healthy love.

Hold me tight in your arms,

 while I'll hold your heart.

 Be happy for me,

 I don't want you to suffer.

I've seen so many horrible things

in this awful life, this pain.

Let me protect you from them.

I only want to see you happy,

even if it means I'll have to let you go.

Even if it means I'll have to be alone again.

Because that's real love.

(okay now I'll take a break)