//felix POV://
i was laying in bed i missed hyunjin and my separation anxiety was acting up i curled up in bed i felt numb again.....i thought the pain was over was it gone or was it just a distraction.... i went to the bathroom and curled up against the wall and looked over at my blade and picked it up i rolled up my sleeve and cut my milky skin letting fresh blood flow out onto the old cuts i winced at the feeling it felt good but i wanted more... i went to my kitchen and brought out a sharp knife i made sure i cut deeper into my hand i felt dizzy
suddenly chan walked in
"oh no,no,no baby" he whispered to himself
i woke up in a hospital room i felt dizzy next to me was hyunjin holding my hand his eyes puffy and he looked so tired and worried
"h-h-hyunie are you ok?" i said weakly
"a-ah baby...are you ok?" hyunjin asked kissing my head as i smile weakly nodding
"y-yea i'm fine thanks" i said smiling at him as he placed kisses on my head and cheeks
"ahhh hyunie so much kisses!!" i smiled and giggled a bit
hyunjin smiled and then booped my nose
"so baby..tell me what happened?.." hyunjin asked softly
"i'm sorry hyunie i felt lonely and numb" i said softly as i curled up
"hey,hey,hey it's ok baby at least you're okay now ok my love" hyunjin smiled and kissed my cheek
i smiled softly and kissed hyunjin's head
the next few weeks i went through rehab to make sure i was okay when i arrived home hyunjin stayed with me until he had some things to do in his personal life when i was ar home i curled up and looked around it was getting bad...
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"am i gone yet..."|| hyunlix angst
Romancefelix has trauma and is depressed he has anxiety and a eating disorder he is scared of going back to australia his dad s3xually assaulted him and his mother took her life he lived alone in a tiny apartment in korea it was like any korean dorm you wo...
