all for you || a xiaojun ff ||

prologue

Hi, it's Y/n, the uncool, super unpopular outcast of Seoul Emirates High School.  Well, I haven't even stepped foot in the school yet, but I already know that's how everyone's going to feel about me.  It's like a badge I wear, a title that precedes me.  "Y/n, the girl who's always moving, the girl who doesn't belong."

Today is the first day of my sophomore year, and I'm starting at a brand new high school.  Another fresh start, another chance to be the invisible girl.  You already know, I move a lot.  I'm in and out of adoptive parents' homes, and just when I finally get used to a place, I'll be called in to move again.  It's like a revolving door, except instead of people, it's me, the girl who never quite fits in.

For a big portion of my time, my life was a gray, monotonous blur.  It sucked, like big time sucked.  But then he entered my life.  He was like a burst of color, a whirlwind of energy that turned everything upside down.  He changed everything.

His name was Jaehyun.  He was everything I wasn't, and everything I needed.  He was a ray of sunshine in my otherwise gray world.  He was the kind of guy who could make you laugh until your stomach hurt, the kind of guy who could make you feel like you were the only person in the room.  He made me laugh when I thought I'd forgotten how.  He made me feel seen, like I wasn't just another face in the crowd.

Jaehyun was my best friend, my confidante, my rock.  He was the one who made me believe that maybe, just maybe, things could be different.  He was the one who showed me that even in the darkest of times, there's always hope.

But now, he's gone.

He passed awwy suddenly in a fatal car accident, leaving me with a gaping hole in my heart and a suitcase full of memories.  I'm back to square one, facing a new school, a new city, and a whole new set of unknowns.

I don't know what to expect.  I don't know if I'll find another friend like Jaehyun, another person who can make me feel like I belong.  But I do know one thing for sure: I'm not going to let the past define me.  I'm going to make the most of this new chapter, even if it's scary.

Because even though he's gone, he taught me something valuable: that even in the darkest of times, there's always hope.  And maybe, just maybe, I'll find my own sunshine again.  Maybe I'll find it in the unexpected, in the faces of strangers, in the quiet moments of self-discovery.  Maybe I'll find it in myself.

I take a deep breath, clutching my backpack a little tighter.  It's time to face the unknown, time to step into the world of Seoul Emirates High School.  I'm not sure what awaits me, but I'm ready.  I'm ready to find my own light, even if it means starting from scratch.

A/N : please do let me know how you arr fedling about tbis book i need advice on how to write well since i might make it my career thank you so much and as always take care and stay safe

xx ahra