JUST, A First Love

Chapter 4 (Final)

A few days have passed since that incident. Savesta hasn't talked to me since. I can't stop thinking about her whenever I'm with Violet.

"Hey Kurt, have you heard about Savesta and Bartholomew? They said that both of them are together now," said Greg. Then, thoughts suddenly filled my head instantly.

"O-oh, is that so? Good for them I guess..." I replied.

"Well at least you're with Violet now, right? Don't tell me you still have feelings for Savesta, you were the one who broke up with her."

"Yeah, yeah, you don't have to remind me."

The news of the two spread like wildfire in our school.

"I guess that's the perk of being popular huh," I thought to myself. They became the "popular couple in our school," and it kinda irritates me to see both of my friends dating each other.

Violet then walked up to me, "Hey Kurt, are you alright? You look like you haven't slept yet, you look much paler than normal too," she said to me.

"Oh, I'm fine, I'm just having a hard time in some of our subjects." I answered.

"Well whatever you say."

It has been quite a few weeks. I can't take this anymore, I still like Savesta and seeing her with Bart makes it worse. Suddenly the thought "If I can't have her, then no one will" came to my mind, which is weird since I've always said that love is just a waste of time.

I guess I've really changed, it's like I don't know myself anymore. Well, I still can't live like this though. I need to do something.

I thought of a plan, a plan which Savesta and I will always be together forever. I stalked her for a while like I've become a crazy person.

The next day, I started my plan. I put a letter on her locker. It said to meet at a specific place at night. The writer was anonymous though so I'm not sure if she'll really go.

After school, I went to that place, Savesta was walking there so I hid.

"Hello? Is there someone here?"

I showed myself.

"Long time no see, Savesta."

I see her eyes filled with terror.

"O-oh, it's just you K-Kurt. Were you the one who wrote that letter?"

"Yeah, it was me."

Then, she became solid as a rock, she was terrified.

"Oh, this?" I unhid my knife that was behind me. "Well, I thought that we could die together. It's true love right?"

She ran with fear. I was just walking behind her.

"Didn't you love me before, Savesta? Why are you running away from me?"

"Y-you're a monster," she replied.

"Okay, I guess."

I chased after her and eventually, I caught up to her. I covered her mouth.

"Shhhh, you're gonna get us found."

"Stay away from her," a familiar voice said.

"Is it? Perhaps Bart?" I asked.

"Well you are damn right," Bartholomew replied. "Also, bold of you to bring a knife to a fistfight," he added.

I charged at him with the knife in my other hand. He dodged it. We have never fought before, so I knew that was bothering him.

While we were fighting, I threw the knife at him, hitting his head. Blood dripped down, and he fell on his knees.

"BART!" Savesta yelled, then she hurriedly ran to him with a very concerned look on her face.

"H-HOW COULD YOU? YOU MONSTER. I WISH I HAD NEVER MET YOU. YOU RUINED ME," she screamed at me.

Suddenly, I snapped back to reality, I realized what I had done.

"W-what happened to me? I-I just murdered my own friend. I-I..." I said. "I'm sorry, Bart."

Tears fell down my face, as I approached him.

"STOP ACTING LIKE YOU REGRET IT, YOU MONSTER!" Savesta yelled again.

I took the knife from his head, and I stabbed myself.

"I really am sorry. I thought we could be together forever... but I was wrong. I guess, I am just your first love and nothing more than that. Goodbye, make sure to take care of yourself."

"N-no, why? WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?" tears fell down her face.

Then, I finally took my last breath.