14 october
so hi yeah . shit got worse i sh again i destroyed the almost four-month clean streak i had and I've gotten fucking fatter like my god someone put a bullet in my brain now and all my fucking attempts don't work so like I'll be thirteen before one my attempts work cause like no shit can never go my way and oh my god I've sh in the most fucking noticeable place but Luckly its faded cause i burnt not cut so at the moment it kind of looks like a bruise so hope fully people think its a bruise and oh my god all the food i have in my lunch is so fucking full of calories like kil me , kill me fucking now but make sure i die pretty so at least someone might like me even if I'm dead and like school is just a reminder at how pretty everyone else is and how I'm a fucking fatass ugly pimply bitch who no one really likes me and how I'm just annoying burden who will probably die at her own hands because she's just that selfish i swear one day my attempts will work and will finally be dead and everything will be better cause i swear even if my attempts don't work will find some other way cause i swear to god i can't do this shit anymore
