The first thing people notice about me is that they don't , like ever. It's gotten to the point where nobody would notice lil ole me anywhere and Its not ideal but prefer it that way.
The thing is that I'm actually very introverted and the only person I socialize with is my family and that's barely. I've lived like this for majority of my especially after ex bsf stopped talking to me. She made me feel so little and really abused me mentally, and the outcome of that abuse I became more antisocial than I already was and that cost me a lot of my social life. I became self conscious, insecure, and if my life wasn't already hard, I developed anorexia bulimia which is a physiological disorder where I eat little to none and that took me into a deep depression which I am currently taking therapy for so take all this information and take it as you will but also remember I hate explaining myself over and over again.
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Nylas pov:
12:00
School
IT was 20 minutes before the bell rung for lunch and I was sitting at my desk in my math class listening to the lecture being taught by my teacher Ms Moore. "Okay class since we only have 20 minutes left I want you to take that time to study for next weeks test" Ms Moore told us. I opened my notes and got to studying. I made good grades and I could actually afford to fail this test because it wouldn't affect me but I decided to study. "Ms Rae can you see me after class sorry to hold you back from lunch but I need to talk to you" my teacher asked and I nodded in response and continued my work.
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After class I stayed back like I was instructed to and my teacher approached me " ok Nyla as you already know you are passing this class with a perfect A" she stated " I wanted to ask you a favor and ask if you can tutor the qb for extra credit and community service hours" she asked.
In my mind I was a very much wanted to say no. So I did.
"No" I said. I didn't want to take on that kind of responsibility because I know how I am. I'm the type of person who will walk out if someone seems to slow to catch on to something that is so easy to me but I would eventually realize not everyone is as academically gifted as I am.
"Nyla, cmon now you know the boy need help and you the only person who actually understands the assignment and plus no one else would do it" she mumbled the last part and I just rolled my eyes.
"Fine I'll do it but I want a week off of homework" I only gave in because I knew no matter how much I could've said no she was gonna continue to beg and Ian wanna hear that shit.
"Thank you Nyla. You can go now" she told. I got up and walked out the classroom "I'm hungry" I say but I just don't wanna eat so I'm not. Ik it's not healthy but when I was still friends with dahlia she made it seem like I was overweight and told me to eat less or we wouldn't be friends anymore. At the time I wanted to please her so I listened. Big mistake btw.
I went to the cafeteria and I immediately wanted to throw up. The smell alone made me wanna throw up but I couldn't because I haven't eaten in 3 days. I left the cafeteria and texted my sister that I was leaving.
Star ⭐️: nyla
Bunny 🐰: Ava
Star ⭐️
Bunny
Bunny 🐰
Hiii Nyny
Star ⭐️
I'm finna go home call me when you're ready
Bunny 🐰
Why you leaving
Star ⭐️
I don't feel good
Bunny 🐰
Oh... ok be safe I love you Nyny 🤍
Star ⭐️
I will I love you too 🤍
I put my phone in my pocket and got in my car and drove home.
* a/n: hey yall. I forgot to put a warning but this story does mention eating disorders, depression, anxiety, and other things. If any of theses things bother you please do continue reading I do not recommend it and know that you are not alone in any battle your fighting. Anyway have a nice day.
