Billie Eilish Imagines

Safe*

TW: SA

"Hey, y/n,"

My girlfriend speaks softly as her legs cross over one another on our bed, so she's sitting next to me."Hey, what's up?" I look up from my phone to see Billie's expression, it isnt one I've seen before. It seems as though she's scared but also upset

"Can i talk to you?" Straight away, i shut off my phone and throw it elsewhere on the bed, resting my hands on my knees. "Go ahead, Bil." She takes a deep breath before looking up from her lap and into my eyes. "So, you know when i told you my last boyfriend i had, was abusive in a way?"

Anger boils within me as she mentions her ex-boyfriend. When they were together, i was good friends with Billie. He was an insecure prick who put her through unnecessary emotional turmoil. "And you know how i told you that having sex will take me a little longer to like -"

She pauses for a few moments, as though she's looking for her next words to appear in my eyes. To save her the search, i just nod my head, letting her know i understand. Billie and i have been dating for three months, and we haven't ever had sex. She made it clear when we started talking romantically it'd take a bit longer for her to get there. I love Billie, and so of course, i respect her boundaries.

"So -" She clears her throat and as her eyes shift back to her hands on her lap. "He assaulted me."

Her voice quivers as she tells me the reason as to why intimacy scares her as much as it does. Moments of silence fill the room, eventually interrupted by her sniffling, i see the tears drop directly from her eyes onto her hands."Bil."

Gently, i open my legs and pat the space between them, gesturing for her to come and sit."Come on, baby, it's okay." Her body shuffles between my legs, and she leans her head against my chest, her tears being absorbed by my shirt. "Thank you for telling me..." I hum against her soft hair as i run my hand soothingly over hers. "...you're safe with me."

She looks up at me in my arms and offers me a small smile through her flow of tears. I reach up with the back of my hand and wipe away the evidence of her sadness. "I'm telling you because -" Billie pauses."Hm?"

"-because i want to have sex with you, but i need you to be so unusually gentle, and i wasn't quite sure how to ask because it's - yeah - unusal." Understanding, i nod my head."Of course."My girlfriend pushes herself up gently to kiss my lips."Thank you, y/n."The vibrations from her words make me smile against her lips. She pulls away and looks up at me suggestively as her hand slithers under my hoodie.

"Yeah?"Her head eagerly nods, to which i giggle."Okay." Gently, i guide her body to accept the warmth of our covers and to lay down completely with Billie's head balancing on our pillows."Is it okay if i take your shirt off?"I know im going to have to take this slow and to ask consent with every step, but I'd love nothing more to make my girlfriend feel safe and good."Yeah."

Lovingly, i lean down to kiss her as my hands dance around the hem of her shirt."Arms up."Her body lifts ever so slightly as she lifts her arms up in the air, and i slide her shirt off, throwing it on the floor."You doing okay?"I look down at my girlfriend underneath me to find her looking up at me with a look of love and need in her eyes and her lip between her teeth."mhm." Nervously, i giggle.

"Good." Billie disgards her bra quickly, throwing it with her shirt. I grin widely at her eagerness. My fingers run over her jawline gently as i lean down to kiss her sweetly. As her tongue enters my mouth, i slide my fingers down to her chest, toying with her nipples. "Y/n."Her breathy moans are pushed into my mouth, causing me to smirk.

After i give her breasts enough attention, i pull away from our kissing, a strand of spit being the only thing to connect us."Are you okay if i go further?"My fingers trail down to the button of her jeans, and Billie looks down at my hand."yeah- just - can i guide you?"Understanding that Billie wouldn't want me doing anything unpredictable and would find comfort in the latter, i kiss her lips before pulling away and nodding."Yeah, course."

I shuffle down the bed so my body is laid between her legs, my head half a meter from her core and look up at her as i pull her jeans off of her body."Pretty girl."My eyes catch her covering the blush that crosses her cheeks, to which i grin widely."Is it okay if i take these off?"Her underwear is the only thing stopping my fingers from touching her centre.

"mhm."I do as im allowed and throw her underwear with the rest of her clothes."Okay, baby, you wanna guide me?"My eyes lock with hers as she smiles and her hand comes to sit on top of mine. I feel her skin exert a force onto mine and push my fingers onto her pussy, so they're touching her clit. A little gasp escapes her throat as she uses her index and middle finger to move mine against her bundle of nerves. My eyes are fixated on her face thats contorted with a strong feeling of pleasure.

"Is this okay?"Her head falls back against our pillows as she moves my fingers against her clit at a faster pace."ngh- yeah."The sounds of her breathy moans sends a feeling of satisfaction through me, knowing im making her feel good whilst also safe, makes me feel amazing.My fingers are pushed into her clit to exert a little more pleasure and to circle faster. I run my unoccupied hand over the skin of her thigh as a comforting gesture.

"y/n-"Hearing my name come out in stutters makes me smile."Yeah, Bil."

"im gonna come-"Gently i place my lips on her thigh, leaving soft kisses as she does whatever she pleases with my index and middle finger, whatever she needs to reach her high.After a few moments i feel her thigh shake violently against my lips to which i pull away. Her body thrashes slightly against my fingers. Once Billie's body stops moving her fingers let go of mine and so i pull away.

"Are you okay?"I kneel up inbetween her legs and look up at her dishevelled state. Billie's soft hair is all over the place and her face is all flustered.

"Yeah-"She sits up and her hands find mine."That was amazing, y/n."

Billie smiles against my lips as she kisses me lovingly.