See you again. || haobin ff

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Zhanghao sighs, it's been 3 exact years since he's been dead. Unrealistically, he's a ghost. With ghost friends of course! He isn't lonely but that's not the reason why he is sad.

Today marks 3 years after his death. He hates seeing people cry, especially about him. For these past 2 years it's been the same people who come. His childhood friend Ricky, and Ricky's friend Gyuvin who comforts him during the day. His little brother Yujin who always cries the hardest. And one more person who always comes first and leaves last. Sung Hanbin, who is Zhanghaos bestfriend, favorite friend, and the friend he has attachment issues with. In fact, he is actually in love with this friend.

If there was 1 thing Zhanghao regrets in his life, it would be never telling Hanbin how he actually felt about him. He dies mentally everytime he thought about the missed opportunities he could've said something. But now, he must live in misery. Hanbin never getting to know the feelings his old bestfriend had for him. All Zhanghao could do is just watch from afar, not really. He is still a ghost but humans can't see ghosts.

Zhanghao always felt invisible, but when he was alive Hanbin always made him feel seen. Being a ghost made everything worse. He would watch over Hanbin the most. He sees when he wakes up for school. When he checks his phone and sees the wallpaper being an old picture of them together. When he goes through his wallet and it's a picture of Hao in there. When he he gets back home and stares at the frame he has printed on the wall of him and Hanbin together. Deep inside of Zhanghaos heart he wants to hug him so bad. Tell him that he sees him, and to please see him again. That he will always love him no matter what. But he's dead, and now he feels even more invisible than ever.

Zhanghao doesn't stalk anyone on his death anniversary. He learned his lesson the first year. So he just waits, sitting on the grass beside the tombstone. Hanbin is the first person who comes again. Just like the last 2 years he has been doing. This time hanbin looks even more sadder then ever. His eyes are more puffy, eyes are light pink, hair is messy, cheeks are flushed, and nails have been bitten. Usually during the hour that hanbin comes before anyone else, he says nothing. But this year he finally speaks up.

"Hi hao." his eyes start to tear up again. "I miss you, like crazy. It's hard to live without you. You know that right? 1st year was hard, 2nd year was harder, and this year is even more worse. Everything I do and did was for you. You are my bestfriend in the whole entire universe. Today hit harder than usual, officially 3 whole years without my favorite person. I wished I told you how much I appreciated you before you left me alone. This year is like an official statement that you are away from me. More than ever, and i'll never have those moments back with you. I'll never have you in my arms, hugging you. I feel so alone, and maybe this feeling will never pass by but I miss you. And life doesn't really feel like life without you by my side. So if we ever get a chance again to live in the same universe as bestfriends, and we end up having the same fate... I'll die with you this time."

Zhanghao watched Hanbin confess in front of his tombstone, talking as if Hao wasn't hearing the whole thing. Hao watched again as Hanbin cried again, more than last year. He also found himself crying again too. Hanbin always made him feel important, but this time he felt even more important. He really did make an impact on his life. And he wanted Hanbin to know that he also made an impact on his life.

The hour passes by and everyone comes. Zhanghaos parents never come since it's too much to bear. But Ricky comes with Gyuvin, then Yujin last. Everyone says their words and stays for an hour then leaves. Hanbin being left alone again, he gets on his knees and looks at the sky.

Zhanghao watched again, Hanbin was never this desperate about anything. Hanbin never begged anyone for anything. Hanbin leaves after a couple
of minutes and then Hao looks at his own tombstone and walks away where all the ghosts usually gather around