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Today was labeled as "great" in my day tracker. I have a stupidly long sheet of paper with hundreds of tiny squares drawn evenly on the page. From the date February 20th 2024, I have since coloured in a square everyday. Different colours mean different overall views of the day, and today was yellow. "Great". The highest ranking possible! I woke up and decided I was done, done with school. I just couldn't do it today. I lied to my mom (which I still am not proud of), and told her I felt sick. Which- to be fair, wasn't complete bullshit. Mentally, I felt like shit! She was unbelievably kind about it, and she told me to not worry and just go back to bed. I padded down the hall and into my room, finding myself asleep for the next 3 hours. Maybe I truly did need the rest. For the remaining hours of my day, I cuddled with my pug, Daisy. I'm sure she didn't mind a single bit. I also managed to hand sew a stuffed cat animal in the total of four hours, basically taking up the entirety of my hours at home. Which honestly was quite therapeutic! At around 5, I got a text from my beloved friend Ethan. He's a couple years older, but is always there for me and lets me vent and chat to him whenever. And I try to do the same, I've definitely helped him through shit before. After sending me long paragraphs and screenshots of the fight he and his girlfriend had took part in, he graced my eyes with the simple words "We broke up" on my illuminated screen. He's the sweetest guy, and I'm not biased. Okay, he's fucked up in more ways than one. Okay, he gets into some shady stuff. So what? So what? He's funny and kind and caring. That might sound cringe, but I'm not joking. People are so quick to judge and assume for seemingly no reason at all. And I can't say I'm not guilty of this either; I've caught myself more than once assuming or just generally being a bitch about something that affects me in no way whatsoever. It's normal, everyone is human. It doesn't mean it's not wrong though, and we should still try our best to not say shit about others. That was my day! I'm feeling better and I'm feeling ready to sit in a dark classroom for seven hour's tomorrow! God, school sucks ass. Okay, I should get to bed. Goodnight!
P.S. I'm #440 out of all 60k books under the "diary" tag on wattpad. Thanks guys :)
- Ivy, October 15 2024 10:49 PM
