Fantasy 5 - Rekindle

Meeting him after almost 2 years. And he hugged me, the way he used to. It was more of holding me in his arms rather than a normal hug between friends. That brought all the old memories of him, about us, about me being naive dancing in front of my eyes. I was the 1st girl in his life. I was not his girlfriend but something special for sure. I was his 1st kiss. I'm living my flash back life in that 1 hug. My buried feelings for him and then also the rejection. Me soothing my heart that he is happy with his girlfriend.but didn't expect his break up which he didn't even share. Life always plays a joke with me. He slightly pulls me away to look at my face and says in a very low voice that he missed me I wouldn't believe that if I hadn't seen his lips moving. He kept staring at me and then again pulled me in a hug. I don't know what's wrong. I don't even know if he is sad with the break up, or what he is feeling about that. I just try to do what I always do for him. Just being there for him.
He sighs loudly and then breaks the hug and goes for a seat on the sofa. I go to the kitchen to get some water. As I pass him the water and sit on the opposite sofa keeping the gap of the whole room. I thought as usual I would have to start the conversation, but he beat me to it and asked about my job and settling here. It was a conversation with a proper 2 line reply. I wanted to tease him about what he has done to my one word answer friend. But I didn't want to ruin the moment. Then I asked him about his future plan. We discussed my new house. I wanted to show him the house. We started from my favourite place my balcony. As I opened my window he saw the swing and settled on it and again we started talking things here and there. After some time we reached my room he was seeing my room and then he sat on the bed and held my hand I didn't know what to do so I walked 2 steps towards him, he placed both hands on my hip and then pulled me closer and hugged me. His forehead pressing against my belly. I was stunned by the suddenness I placed my hands on his shoulders, but he didn't say anything. I asked him what was wrong, he shook his head in no direction. I didn't know what to do, slowly my hands held his head and massaged his scalp. I kept calling his name but he didn't respond. He kissed my belly. That 1 kiss was enough to make the butterfly in my stomach dance. He tipped his head upwards looking at me. I just said why didn't you talk to me. He kept staring at me as if I was talking in Hebrew. I again said, I would obviously come to you if you had asked or talked to me rather than being silent. He didn't say anything turned his face and again I don't know what he is feeling. I wanted to change the topic so I said let's get some breakfast and I tried to break loose from his embrace but he held me tight and pulled me to sit on the bed. I sat beside him. I folded my one leg and turned towards him. He just leaned on my shoulder and I put my one arm around him. And with another I kept rubbing his forearm.
He twisted a little and kissed my shoulder and I just froze by his action. He created a gap between us to see my face. I was staring at him with a surprise and a little shocked look. He leaned forward to kiss me but I don't know how but I moved back a little. Looking at my reaction now it was his turn to freeze. I was trying to read his expression but I couldn't. He turned and was about to get up from the bed. I held his elbow and stopped him. He stopped but didn't look at me. I asked what was going on, please talk to me. He didn't say anything or look at me. I begged please at least say something, anything. He didn't. I physically force him to look at me. His stares were blank I couldn't read anything. He shifted his gaze to my lips. Then up. I didn't realise I still had my plans on his cheeks. He placed one hand on my hand and brought it to his lips to kiss. And placed the other one my cheeks caressing my cheekbones. He again started at my lips. He murmured moments before you kiss someone. And then looked up at me as if it meant something. I was not able to understand and then he stroked his thumb across my lips and that's when I remembered. That's what I said before I kissed him, our 1st kiss. Acting out the memory I parted my lips and leaned forward. And there it's done it can't be undone. He kissed without wasting another second. He kissed slowly and passionately. Remembering our 1st kiss. He moved from him place and pushed my shoulder backward so that I would be lying on my back. He was on top. He broke the kiss and asked may I. I was stunned, and kept looking at him. He again asked may I go ahead or stop?. I'm still staring. He kisses my forehead and says baby can I take a step further. I nod my head. He kisses me on my earlobe and says use your words baby words. And as soon as I say yes he bit my earlobe. He still remembers my soft spot. And then I'm lost in my thoughts. Maybe it was her spot too that's why he remembers it. He might have understood from my sudden change in response he stops kissing me and drags his nose my neck to my ears and says it's you and not her. It will always be you. And then I'm back where I was broken. He doesn't move he is breathing heavily over my ears and neck I can feel the heat. I don't move or say anything. I know we can never have a future as a couple but having only physical will destroy us or rather me more than him. Cause I love a person with whom I can't live my life with and also without him. But these bits and pieces will also kill me. As if he could hear all this commotion in my head, he just moved and laid on the bed beside me. It was at the same time I moved to be held by him and he also moved his arms to pull me towards him. It was just as it used to be. Just like my memories. We just lay there. I'm drawing circles on his chest and he is drawing on my forearm. I'm lost in my thoughts. I'm never going to marry him or for the matter of fact anyone, I'm never going to have any relationship more serious than this one then why I'm resisting myself. Why am I not letting him give the happiest hours of my life. Why I'm thinking as if he is playing with you and your emotions. That's it I have made my decision. I twist and look up and he is staring at the ceiling. He hasn't noticed me looking at him. I move my hand over his clothed crotch. He holds my hand to stop and looks at me in shock. I intertwine my hands with his fingers. Bring them to my mouth and give it an open mouth kiss. I rise on my shoulder to face him while saying 1 thing always will be true that I love you but we can't be together but I'm not going to miss any opportunity I get to spend the time with you. While saying I'm on top of him cradling his hips. I go down and kiss him. He has his hands running up and down on my thighs. I stop the kiss and look him in the eyes and tell him very confidently I want to take the next step.
He brings his thumbs to my lips to strike it while he is confirming what I just said. And in a reply I suck his thumb and release it with a pop. And suddenly my life is upside down. And he is on top of me. He is kissing my neck, rather nibbling on it. With his one hand he removes my bra hooks and I help him in removing my shirt and bra. Then I lift his shirt to remove it. He is staring at my nipples making me shy to cover them. He uncrosses my hand and caresses the breast swell making me crave for more. I arch my back exposing myself to him for him to touch me all he wants. He bends down prepping kisses down from my neck till the valley between my breasts. His fingers are toying me by drawing circles around my nipples but not touching them. I'm wet to be precise I'm leaking. He is the only one that can make me cum with breast foreplay. If he continues he might make it happen again. He is bitting the breast swell but still he hasn't touched my nipples. I will surely go crazy. My fingers are gripping his hair and I keep saying please, please he knows I want him to touch my nipples but like a sadist he doesn't. Shivering with the arousal. Suddenly I have the feeling of falling from the sky. He bit my one nipple and pinched the other both at the same time and a bit harder than I'm used to. He has me again I'm vibrating through my orgasm. He is soothing my sore nipples. They are sensitive. He is blowing over my nipples making the shiver run down my spine. He lets my breathing get normal while he is saying sweet nothings in my ears. As soon as I got back from my high he asked me if I was alright. I whisper better than alright. He kisses me on my cheeks and his fingers are outlining my crotch asking for permission. I nod a yes and he trails down ho kissed from my cheeks to neck to my nipple to navel giving it a nice lick. He is eye level to my crotch he fingers are curled in to take off my shorts and underwear. I don't even know when my body was tensed. But he did notice, he kissed my clothed crotch and said I won't do anything that will make you uncomfortable. He saw me relaxing and he continued to remove my clothes. He dragged up his fingers with a feather touch till my inner thigh. He appreciated my clean shaven crotch by Kissing it. I begged, please don't toy with me this time. He laughed and said you are no fun. And kissed my hooded pussy. He pulled my thighs apart making me embarrassed as I was leaking with my cum It's been a long time since someone has gone downhill. One lick and all the embarrassed feeling all the weird feelings are out the window and arousal is in. I buck my hip away from him making him tighten his grip on my hips making me stay put. He kisses my inner thighs making his way till my clit. He grazes his tongue very lightly over my clit it makes me shiver. He continues a few strokes before sucking it hard making me cry my moan.
I grip his hair tightly. Making him know I love what he is doing. He is licking and sucking my clit. He is fingering my entrance he is just making it difficult for me to hold on and not cum. He spreads my pussy open and enters his tongue making me shake with desire. He stops suddenly to look at me but I moan in frustration in the loss of his mouth on my pussy. Laughing like a sadist he spanks my pussy calling me a naughty dirty little girl. He spanks more than a couple of times. I can't take it at this moment I want a release. I begged him to stop toying with me. With a reply of whatever my princess and he starts sucking my clit he pushes 2 fingers deep in the search of my spot. And starts pounding. I can't take it any more I'm there I tell him this and he shatter my world with a bit on my clit. I cry out my orgasm. My body is still shaking he is stroking my pussy helping me to calm down. He comes on top of me to look at me we are face to face. He is smiling satisfied with is working. Kissing my forehead he slides to my side and pulls me in his arms. The last tings I heard before I surrender to my sexual satisfaction is him saying I will always love you.