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The flickering torchlight outside my chamber cast restless shadows on the cold stone walls, amplifying the tension in the air. The faint sound of the distant sea crashing against the cliffs beyond Troy mingled with the hushed whispers of the city, creating an eerie symphony of uncertainty. I leaned against the wooden frame of my window, peering out at the overcast sky. Heavy clouds loomed above like an oppressive weight, swirling ominously, mirroring the turmoil in my heart. Last night had changed everything. I had given Hector my virginity, a choice that once felt sacred and significant, now wrapped in the shrouds of doubt. As I pressed my forehead against the cool, rough wood, confusion gnawed at me, a hollow ache deep within my chest.

In the warmth of our shared moment, Hector had felt like a fortress—strong, familiar, a protector. But now, in the quiet aftermath, I wrestled with the haunting question: Did I truly love him? My fingers brushed against my lips, recalling the way he had captured my mouth with his, igniting a fire within me that was both intoxicating and terrifying. His touch had been a heady mix of tenderness and raw passion, but now it left behind a residue of fear and longing, as though I had crossed a threshold into an unknown world from which there was no return.

As I struggled with my thoughts, a soft knock on the door pulled me from my spiraling reflections. "Come in," I called, my heart racing at the prospect of facing anyone, especially Chapheris.

She entered quietly, her vibrant red curls cascading over her shoulders like a fiery waterfall, contrasting starkly with the dullness of the room. Her usual exuberance was dampened, her eyes reflecting the concern that gripped my heart. They searched my face, seeking the truth behind the facade I tried so hard to maintain.

"Sabryna, I heard the council is meeting with Hector soon," she said, urgency lacing her words, the slight tremor in her voice betraying her own fears. "They're discussing the war and our defenses. We need to be prepared."

"Oh." I turned from the window to face her, the weight of my decision pressing down like the oppressive heat of summer, suffocating and inescapable. "I didn't realize it was so urgent."

"You don't seem...worried?" Chapheris observed, disbelief creeping into her tone, her brow furrowing in confusion.

"I am," I admitted, the truth spilling out like the first drops of rain against parched earth. The weight of my choice settled heavily on my shoulders, a cloak of uncertainty that felt all too familiar. "Last night was—everything I thought I wanted, but now..."

"What do you mean?" She stepped closer, her eyes wide, concern etched across her features. I could see the concern deepening in her gaze as I fought to articulate the whirlwind of emotions inside me.

"I thought I could find clarity with Hector," I said, my voice trembling slightly, each word heavy with the burden of my heart. "But now I don't know if what I feel for him is real or just...lust. I feel lost, Chapheris."

Chapheris took a breath, her expression shifting from concern to understanding. "Sabryna, listen to me. This isn't just about you and Hector. The council is meeting to discuss the war and our defenses. You can't let your feelings distract you from the gravity of what's happening outside these walls."

Frustration bubbled within me. "I feel torn between my emotions and the reality of the situation."

"Stop being so self-absorbed, Sabryna," she said, her tone firm yet gentle. "It's natural to feel conflicted, but think of the people who depend on us. Troy needs us to be strong. You can't let your feelings for Hector cloud your judgment, especially when our city's fate hangs in the balance."

I nodded slowly, absorbing her words. The council's concerns were valid and urgent, yet my heart still ached with uncertainty. I could almost hear the murmurs of the council echoing in my mind, their discussions about the threats looming over our city.

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