Silent Whispers L. Howlett

Chapter One

The sound of blankets ruffling and the howling wind coming through a window doesn't stop the murmurings from Logan. His body tosses and turns. At first, you couldn't make out what he was saying. You sit up in the bed, getting ready to wake him up. "Jean" The name came out softly through his lips. If you weren't paying attention, you would have missed it. It would've mixed with the flow of the wind.

Everything in you stops as you stare at Logan's blissful form. So many thoughts ran through your mind. After all this time, he's still thinking about her. You can feel the tears threatening to spill from your eyes. You shake your head in hopes of getting rid of the thoughts. But it was futile. "Jean..." He whispers again. In a frenzy, he begins to repeat her name non-stop. You just couldn't take it anymore and ran out of the room.

The next day the energy shift was obvious between you and Logan. You had begun to avoid him. It was to the point that even Ororo pulled you aside. "Hey, What's wrong?" You look away from her and fold your arms. "Nothing, Nothing is wrong" Storm raises an eyebrow at your words. "So why is your forehead frowning?" You use your hands to cover your forehead. "Me and my frowning forehead are out of here!" You take a quick pace to leave the room, Storm right behind you. "It's ok, you can trust me. You can tell me what's going on! Just tell me what's going on." That's when you whip around to face her, tears begin to stream down your face.

"He doesn't love me, Ororo. He doesn't love me. I will always be second place to him." Storm's eyebrows knit together. Everything piecing together in her mind. She takes hold of your hands, a tight grip in fear you might run again. "It's probably not what you think. Have you tried speaking to him? You know how extreme his nightmares are." You scoff. "You weren't there. You don't know how I feel. I was lying right next to him but his mind was on another woman. Not what I think? What else is there to think? He's been in love with her since I met him. Even before that. I'm just a placeholder."

Storm furrows her eyebrows. "Don't be like that. Just talk to him." You rip your hands away from her. "He did enough talking last night." You are out the door before Storm could say anything else. As you storm down the hall, out of the corner of your eye you see Logan. The rage that you were already feeling amplified tenfold. You can already hear his footsteps right behind you, calling your name. You are quick to run up the stairs to your room, locking the door behind you.

You pick up your bag from under your bed, getting ready to fill it up with your things. That's when you start to hear the banging. Logan calling your name repeatedly. "What's the matter? You've been avoiding me all day. You know I won't understand if you don't tell me what's going on." Blood boiling within your body as you angrily throw things into the bag. "Understand me? Shouldn't you understand yourself? Maybe understand your horrible nightmares." It goes silent for a moment. "I don't know what you're talking about, Bub."

You zip up the bag. "Try again, James." You make a quick pace to open the door. There Logan stands before you, confusion written all over his face. "You're full of shit." Logan cracks a smile. "I get that often." Your hand whips across his smug face, causing a bit of blood dripping out of his mouth. "I get that often too."

You grimace at his words, tears threatening to spill once again. "Why am I not good enough for you? Why is it always HER?! Jean, Jean, Jean. It's always about her. When am I going to be your number one? When is it gonna just be me in your heart?"

Logan grabs ahold of you. "Don't say things like that. I love you with everything in me." You stare into Logan's eyes before letting out a sigh. "Let go of me, Logan." He reluctantly lets go of your shoulders. You turn to pick up your bag off the bed. "I really did love you with my whole being. My heart, my soul, everything. And I am not going to be second place to someone I love." Before Logan to respond, you (dramatically) jump out the window and disappear in the dark.