❝ oh, how i wish you'll wake up someday ❞
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CHRIS STURNIOLO, moved to LA with his brother and his gf of 2-3 years to pursue their youtube career and better living. He wasn't expecting to reunite with a big piece of his...
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Tomorrow is Sunday's surprise party. I was excited but also nervous because what if she didn't want a party.. but it's a surprise and it's better than not celebrating at all.
So all day today I was getting my house together, getting gifts, and overall running errands making sure that tomorrow would be easy to get everything together for it. The party was at 8 but I still wanted to be prepared.
me and Chris have been more on a regular level than like "best friends" or whatever. it really didn't bother me because I mean... we literally rekindled a month and a half ago. I've been thinking about what Nick said "finding someone" to get my mind off of him because like i posted on my spam.. did you guys see it? of course you did your reading my life.
breaking the 4th wall? if not ignore this I've been saying this all day - author
it was true you know having a crush is tiring as fuck. Especially when they have a "lover" it makes it worse.. but like I've never had a crush that has lasted this long and i'm really ready for it to be over. Whether it ends up in a relationship or we stay just friends or even go back to never talking to each other. But I think that last option will make it so much worse.
But back to finding someone else. I'm gonna make it my goal to at least find a friend who's the opposite gender.. and maybe make someone jealous... what the fuck am i talking about.
I was sitting in this French cafe and it was pretty spot on to the real ones.. i'm saying this like I've been to France... anyway I was having a cup of hot chocolate and a croissant, hot chocolate in the summer hits different in some way... like eating/drinking something that's not supposed to be out in the time of the year makes me like feel like a rule breaker.. that's corny.
Then I went on instagram and guess who's post came up.. Chris & Amelia.. It was a cute picture. I may say he looked fine as ever... and she was... there but she's pretty too I can't be talking bad about her anymore really.. it's not like me to not like someone I don't know... especially someone who's dating my best friend and I know they're dating. It made me feel bad every time I even thought about saying something bad cause she doesn't know I like him. and I have to tell my self this every time.
To cope and accept it. I commented on the post and said
"the dream to have something like this 😔"
it was the dream, the dream for years like long ass years.. the dream replayed over and over.. did I get that dream. No. Because I had to move on with my life and think about my future and not stay in Boston all my life.
then I see she replied to my comment and said
"you'll find your person soon babe <3"
and she was sweet! Now talking about her makes me seem like a shitty ass person who hates on sweet people just because of a boy! I had to stop whatever this voice was in my head that wanted me to just not like her. But she was sweet, pretty and she seemed like she was happy and all I could do was be there to support her and him I guess... and come with downsides but I really want to forget this whole thing and I am.
