our love goes beyond

ྀིྀི𝘢 𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵୨୧

a new start, I step foot in this hellish place once again. A new school, Louin High. I got kicked out of my other school for trying to drown another student, I hope I do it again in this school. 

I had found myself standing in a hallway filled with loud obnoxious filthy people. god, I hate people. i walked around the school, peeping in some classrooms until i found mine, classroom 7, The moment i walked in i saw a girl with blond with a strawberry pink fade on the bottom of her hair, it was long and wavy. She was surrounded with other students, she was wearing mostly pink, she seemed bright and the total opposite of me. i want to avoid everyone here, i walked to my seat and put my bad down, before i could sit a loud, soothing voice called out to me, i turned to face the person, it was the girl. "hey your the new student!" she called out as she walked toward me, she got close to me, as our noses almost touched. What? why is she so close? why do i feel warm? "what do you need..?" i said in a whisper, the girl finally moved her face away from mine after what felt like an hour. "what's your name? Im ruime!" once her name slipped out of her mouth, i felt my heart skip a beat. i stood in silence trying to recollect my thoughts, did i just forget my name just by being in front of her? what am i doing? "im shijo, how are you?" my name finally came out of my mouth, i retreated from her a bit, she smiled at me. her smile was beautiful, so beautiful, i never felt this feeling, i had never met this girl even once in my life yet here i am, standing here foolishly in love, what's worse is falling in love with a girl  i'm not supposed to be feeling this.

She smells like flowers, candy and vanilla. i want to know more about her. "wanna eat lunch together after school?" she asked me in her sweet voice, eat lunch with her? yes! what? why can't i say it? i want to eat lunch with her. why won't these words come out of my worthless mouth? "No thanks.." i say hesitantly. i don't know why i can't say it, whatever, im not supposed to feel love to another girl anyway. her smile faded but rose again, oh god i made her sad didnt i? im such an idiot. "no worries! i know you aren't comfy with me yet! so.... we can hangout after school today!" she grinned sweetly, i thought about it for a while, it wouldn't hurt to be friends, right? 

"sure" i replied to her