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opening of the journal

One year lang ang tanda ko sa pinsan Kong si ishan ako nga pala si yana

Naging mag bff kami nung kidder Garden

"Uyy wag nyong lalapitan si Arianna she so mean",sabi ni mochie

"Huh bakit ano ginawa nya sayo",tanong naman ni Kevin

"I just ask her if I can borrow his pencil and she puke on my hand",taray ni mochie

"It's okay sister",Saad ng kakambal nyang si pochie

"Yeah",tango naman si James

"Di naman siguro",Saad ni ishan

"Anong hindi eh nagtataka nga ako eh mag pinsan kayo pero parang kung titignan ibang iba kayo",paliwanag ni rily

"Mag cousin  lang kami Di kami mag kapatid and beside kahit magkapatid nga magkaiba ng ugali eh bobo ka ba",hiyaw ni yana

"See",bulong ni mochie

"Yana calm down",Saad ni ishan

"Well gusto mo sila then be with them shanie I don't need you anyway",sabay walk out nya

"Ala ka baka mag sumbong sya sa mama nya",saad ni Kevin

"Well then go a head do it",sigaw ni pochie

Nung araw na lumayas ako noon sinundan ako ni ishan

Pero itunulak ko sya papalayo saakin

Pero di sya nag sawa na gumawa ng paraan para maging mag kaibigan kami

And that's how our friendship started

"Yana look maganda ba toh saakin",she ask me while hold a pink and purple dress with a flower on the bottom

"Oh yah it suit on your perfectly"

"Tara bayaran na  natin beh"

Ayon ang first time Kong magpunta sa mall ng kasama sya lang we have lot of fun we enjoy every moment of that time that day

But like Judy Santamaria said "nothing last forever",

All the happy memories will end all the pain will end

I'm happy to be with My cousin slash bff

As we grown up starting to change a lot she became to have many friends she became popular and anyone wants her but

Kahit na ganon she always find a way to spend time with me and I'm okay with that

And on my 12th birthday I didn't expect my crush  Dylan will come to my birthday that night

I was so happy when I see him

"Hi dylan",Saad ko habang napipiyok piyok pa

"Oh you must be yana right well here is your gift happy birthday to you well where is ishan",tanong nya saakin

"Sya uhm she is over there in a kitchen helping my mom",I replied

"Oh okay bye yana happy birthday",he walk through the kitchen

I can feel jealousy and insecurities that time

But I act like nothing happen

"Uyy yana binati ka ba ni crushie",pang asar saakin ni ishan

"Uhm oo he wish me happy birthday",I rolled my eyes

"Uyy mukhang bad trip ka birthday na birthday mo",Saad nya

"Eh anong paki mo ,ishan don't act like you know everything kase sometimes nakakarindi ka na rin eh",tinabig ko sya

I left her there confused what happened to me

But I don't have time to explain everything I just want to leave that place

And I also feel like she ruin my night and she is attention seeker

Until one day

"Ohh hi arianna",I look to see the mean girl named Stacey and Tiffany

"Oh hi"