INVINSIBLE OR INVISIBLE [a inheretence games story]

Blackwood

I take in a very deep breathe, watching as they take a helicopter over Blackwood it took them weeks to figure out.. millions of chess games trying to pry me open I didn't slip up again, last time it was moment of weakness I let it slip.. I thought I could have a normal life or relationship with my brothers, but nope that was stupid..
This game is my life it will be life.. it has to be. Because it is my purpose it is my everything.
I have nothing if I don't have a game to control.. not anymore. When they get the next clue..
They figure it out..
Emily's death
Averys birthday
Jameson has his freakout and garyson being garyson iS brooding Avery is confused as fuck.. and I can tell.. *well my jobs done for the day*
I say now I need to wait for them to find the crystals.. then the vault and then the letters
And then what?
And then what?

I try to wake around and find somthing to do.. there's nothing to do
I find Jameson Avery and Grayson sitting to gether in the bowling alley.
"Hey" I say
"Not a good time" Grayson says
"Come and sit" Avery calls out and I smile..
*bless that poor girls heart*
"I've called xan and Nash" I say and they don't answer
When they both arrive.. Jameson starts talking abt the game.
"What if your taking it all worng"  Nash is first to say *he is* I think.
"Whatever no game talk well talk abt in the morning. Rightnkw let's play?" Avery asks
Everyone nods. 
We drink and drink and drink and drink.
*self correction, I drink and drink and drink*
And they let me.
They got me drunk to spill..
I collapsed on the couch the room spinning in circles.. way to many circles... "woofff" I say rubbing my eyes
Jameson comes up to me first
"What do u know" he asks
"About what" I say idk wht on earth ges referring to
"The game" Grayson speaks from Behind him.
*I sober up instantly*  but don't show it.
Instead I let alligator tears come out.
"Janeson I don't like this.. she's heavily intoxicated" Avery says
"He told me was dying.. he told me inwas special..  he left her everything! He left you boys somthing! He left everything somthing anything.. but not me never me.. he left me nothing! He used me Jamie I was the hint, I'm always the hint!" I cry.. wrapping my hands around janesons he disnet console me I don't let that sting
"Did he just leave you one hint" Nash asks
"He said I have to make sure you don't give up that you keep playing you keep being hawthornes" I let out a scream type of sob.
"He said it like I wasn't one"  another sob..

A few minutes later a feeling all three of my brothers lay me back in bed....a yawn escaping me the drunkness crawling back. "On your back monkey" Nash says as Jameson straightens out my hair  on my pillow,  graysons hands me a bucket and xan tucks me in... "tu semper unus ex nobis simia" Grayson mumers
"I don't speak lating but I know what that meant" I say feeling disgutsed "what?" Jameson asked amused.
"Hmm my suffering is always amusing to you, to all if u.. not one of u felt even an ounce of empathy fir me every Saturday whne I balwed my eyes out because I was never included because I wasn't your own! And that's exactly what he said!" I point my finger to Grayson feeling my rage burn up
"Even the old man said somthing in Latin to me once I translated it.. he said always a glass ballerina, never a player"  I say tears falling down *real tears* "fuck I'm a mess" I whispers
"You arnt" xan calls out.. "did I say that out loud?" I ask.. no answer. 
I watch everyone settle in my room, slowly drifting of to sleep myself.
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(P.s *tu semper unus ex nobis simia* means you will always be one of us monkey)
Always a glass ballerina, never a player ♤