PRETEND LOVE || JC

03 : Fear and Flashback

TW: Blood mention, Self-harm

Boots clacked on damp ground, and the pace increased. Looking back again swiftly he saw the dark maroon-red radiate through the whole forest. His breaths got sharp and heavy until they started to ache his throat.

He has to run. Holding a sharp, deep breath he ran until he felt the Earth moving beneath his boots. Freezing in his position, he scanned the surroundings- no human, no animal, not any presence of a creature except himself.

He was all alone.

His body flinched as he felt the movement beneath his boots. His eyes peer at the ground and widen.

His lips tremble and fear crawls on his body. Ground which was damp seconds ago is now parched.

WHAM!

Ground cleaves around him creating a circle around him. 

Crick! Crick!

His body heaves as watches the blood emerge from the fractures in the ground. Trees crumbled down, sky turned red leaving him on the ground where he could barely stand. 

"Cheol" His body stiff hearing the voice; the voice was harsh and rough but familiar.

Jeonghan?

Turning back, his face turned pale, a sharp gasp escaped between his lips, body quivered and eyes widened. 

Huge trees hunged Jeonghan, Wonwoo, and Mingyu. The twigs of the trees wrapped there neck, arm, waist, and thigh.

Blood peeking out from their skin. Their blood absorbed eyes and continued to escape. Yet the creepy thing was that they had huge grins on their faces.

"Cheol" Jeonghan's voice escaped and echoed making Seungcheol flinched. Jeonghan grinned "Do you like it" His voice was soft yet harsh.

"HAH-" An Audible sharp gasp escaped from Seungcheol's mouth as he woke up from his dream more likely to be a nightmare. Pushing his back from his forehead, he removed the blanket and sat hanging his leg on the bed properly while taking heavy breaths. 

His hands shakingly searched the racks which were placed beside his bed.

Where's the fucking medicine!?

"Cheol do you like it?"

Caring his forehead roughly, voices repeated in his mind. Shaking his head he forcefully continued searching his medicines. 

Cmon remember it where you put it Seungcheol!!

Tiredly standing, he marched the whole room to find a medicine which was nowhere to be found. 

"Aww, Hyung why can't you stand to see us?"

Sweat escaped all over his forehead as the voices remarked about nightmares triggering him more in the passing seconds. 

"No no no no please no" He winced as his headache increased.

"Cheol" Jeonghan smiled with uneasy, black liquid escaping from his bloody eyes "Don't you love it seeing us like this? You are the reason Cheol. Aren't you?" Maniac laughs echoed- Wonwoo and Mingyu laughed after Jeonghan's words while twigs around them tightened visibly. 

 Tears welled as his mind recalled the horrible dream. Roughingly messing his hair, his knees weakened and his body trembled. Falling on his knees; cracking sobs finally escaped between his lips. 

He hates it, he fucking hates his life, he hates how he is living right now, he hates how everyone hates him, hates how he has to forcibly go on hiatus, he hates how his members are unable to reach him, he hates himself. He fucking hates himself.

 SMACK!

The corner of his lips bled, a red mark formed on his left cheek, and tears escaped stinging the mark. 

SMACK! SMACK!

Slapping himself again and again, he yelled and sobbed miserly. That's what he can do right now, Hurt himself. If not kill then hurt. That's what he deserves.

SMACK! SMACK! SMACK!

Both cheeks were marked in red, and the corners of the lips bled. His hands were about to raise but-

"Hyung" Seuncheol froze hearing the voice. Soft and crimson voice.

Shua?

"hyung- Oh my god!" Joshua- His half brother; dashed towards him. Scanning his face, Seungcheol noticed how his brother got worried and bit his lips stopping himself from sobbing.

"Argh" He whined as Shua cared his cheeks softly "Why, Just why" Couldn't hold himself back, tears escaped from Joshua's eyes as he saw the miserable condition of his older brother.

Tears continued to escape from Seungcheol's eyes "They hate me shua and I hate myself" Joshua immediately shook his head and patted his silky hair carefully with calmness "Never, I love you Hyung, Jeonghan Hyung, Wonwoo, Mingyu, Seungkwan and especially carats love you hyung" 

"But-"

"Hyung, Everyone knows how beautiful human you are. Your smile is enough for a person to forget their bad feelings. How can you think everyone hates you hyung? But, yeah you can't expect all human beings to love you, can you?" Seungcheol shook his head while Joshua smiled, hugging him tightly.

"Exactly, and those humans are just jealous of you cause they can not be beautiful and loveable like you are trust me. Hyung, I know some people are not here as in body presence, but feel their presence inside your heart hyung. Like Jeonghan Hyung always said I am always in your heart. Hyung we are always there for you, every second, every minute, every hour, every day, every month, every year, every life and everything you name it."

Breaking the hug, Seungcheol softly sobbed "Thank you so much but I am sorry, I am so sorry you all have to suffer because of me"

Joshua shook his head "Never, never say sorry for this. I am here for you in the ups and downs hyung as you were there for me. Okay?"

A soft small smile formed on Seungcheol's face and he nodded "Yes sir"

"Good"

Authors Note:

I edited a little bit of Chapter - 2, Adding some little missing scenes and mixing grammar which I forgot to do in a hurry. In the continuing chapters, there will be such things- as panic attacks, anorexia, self-harm etc.. cause I also wanted to focus on the "Hiatus" phrase of an idol. 

Don't worry, I will soon start the Jeongcheol fake dating but I need the base so readers can understand how truly close Jeongcheol was before fake dating. 

Hope you love the chapter, Do comment and vote- Lots of love!!